Jessica's Journey
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- Thank you to all that are taking the time to hear my story. I have been struggling for the last almost 4 years now with stage 3 cervical cancer and a tumor the size of a cantaloupe that migrated to my pelvis area and caused a lot of damage to me internally including leaving me with only one working kidney. Thankfully, I am getting better and am starting to feel better as well. The cancer and treatment has caused a lot of issues including infections that left me with multiple problems I am still recovering from. Even though I am on the mend and have come so far, including being able to walk on my own again, I still have not left my house bc of one of the side effects of the treatment and also the infection has made this worsen even faster. Though I am extremely thankful to have come so far and grateful that I am still here to be able to help and watch both of my daughter's grow up to become amazing young women, I am struggling to be part of their lives. They tell me this doesn't matter to them, but I have experienced, them flipping out on other people in public who stare and make a comments about the way I look. I know this shouldn't matter, but it really bothers me to watch my girls deal with the ignorance of others, and makes me feel ashamed and like a burden still. I stay home during special occasions and important events in their life so that I don't embarrass them. I would love to not have to worry about this and be there for them, and to have the attention be on them for their accomplishments not on me for my issues. These are their milestones to enjoy and they should be able to enjoy these moments. I really struggle with what is the right thing to do. Do I go, but deal with the consequences that arise, which in turn they also deal with? I want the attention to be on them where it belongs. I also don't like them feeling like they have to defend me. It really has made them grow up faster. My 16 year old daughter has been dating and in a relationship for a few months now and I have not even met him yet. Now, she will be going with him to prom and that is another event I will miss. I want to be able to go on vacations with them this year, they deserve to have fun without worries, and we haven't been able to do these things for years now. I want to see my daughter go to her junior prom next year and both daughter's graduation from middle school and high school in the next couple years. So, I am asking for help to get my teeth fixed, it's really the one thing that is not covered by my insurance and way out of my price range. I want to be able to take care of myself again but also my girls as well. I really hate having to ask for help, but I am out of options. If any knows of any work from home jobs, please DM me, I would love to feel useful again. Once I am able to get dental implants life will be much easier. So, I am asking for your generosity to finish my journey and get my life back. I am also willing to work for it as well. Please help me get back to being a good productive mother and member of society.
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Jessica Shank
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North Adams, MA