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Hi,
For those of you who don't know me personally, my name is Jasmine (or Jazzy, to those closest to me). I am currently training for the Round Sheffield Run, which takes place on Sunday 29th June 2025.
I am not a serious runner, never have been. I've done a few fun runs before (when coerced... I'm looking at you, Richard Thomas PT), but have never really thought of myself as "a runner". I do it when I have to! This latest challenge means I definitely can't wing it, though. It will be the furthest I've ever run, and the toughest course I've ever (hopefully) completed. The Round Sheffield Run is split into stages of 20km, with the entire trail racking up to 24.5km with all the in-between parts. This will be more than double the length of the last run I completed, which was the Redbrik Chesterfield 10k.
I quickly came to realise that what I'm doing wasn't just "a few km more than the last one" - it's a HALF MARATHON. That's pretty huge for me. I never thought I'd be doing this.
Some of you may not know this, but in December of 2024 I received a diagnosis of CPTSD (Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). I always knew there was something not quite right, ever since being a kid, but never realised I had an actual disorder until I was almost 35 and a mum of two. C-PTSD has affected me in so many ways, and it was massively triggered in the aftermath of the birth of my second son. I have just returned to work after 6 months of sickness, during which time I've suffered worse symptoms than ever before in my life. I've struggled with
- memory loss
- hair loss
- totally uncontrollable emotions
- suicidal feelings
- thoughts of self harm
- dissociation
- numbness
- headaches
- gastrointestinal issues
- flashbacks
- nausea
- intrusive thoughts
- panic attacks
- poor concentration
- crushing anxiety
- insomnia
- avoidance
- disordered eating
- loneliness
PTSD and C-PTSD look different to different people, but these have been my symptoms, just to name the ones that come to mind. That's why, instead of just doing this run for me, I want to do it for other people who have suffered trauma, and resulting mental ill-health. I will be dividing the proceeds of my run equally between:
Kelsey Family CIC
Samaritans
and if I manage to raise enough, I will use some of the funds for my own recovery through EMDR therapy (at just over £100 a session, recovery does not come cheap).
I really hope you can support me in my fight for a better tomorrow for trauma survivors. If you can't donate, please share! I'll keep you updated on my progress. If you got this far, thank you.
Jazzy x