Jasmyn’s new home, and need for hope.

Hello hello! I am Jasmyn, the cute little one is my son! I don’t honestly know how to start this or what to say... never thought I’d make one of these, but I decided to put pride aside and give it a go.  Just like everyone I have a story, it’s not special but it’s valid and important, it made me who I am today, and I like her now than ever. As a teenager between 16-18 I was a street kid, no need for any pity, it taught me a lot, about myself and others, and how this world doesn’t deal everyone a fair hand, but unfair doesn’t mean an impossibility to improve! Long story short, I become a mom, I get back to work and have been working since I was young, no complaints though I always enjoyed whatever work I did. Started moving up, had my own place for 3 years just my son and I. No child support, no government assistance besides my sons insurance, a lot of this because of pride, and the determination to do this and be the mother my mother wasn’t... and so far I think I’m doing good.... anyway... not just because of COVID but recent realizations, and a life long battle with myself and my demons, I had noticed though I was doing good I wasn’t doing as much as I could, I have passions and goals, and no house again. By the end of my lease, it got presented my rent was gonna get spiked up 300, 1,235 for a two bedroom apartment in one of the cheapest (not terrible) locations after years of paying 935-950 so instead of signing, and Don’t worry about my boy though we have my grandparents he stays there while I work or however long Gigi would and  will come stay with me at my friends house... not bad but not ideal. Anyway, I am taking a leap and asking for help so I can move into a new place with him I have found 2 perfect possible homes to rent and just need help getting there. I have a plan, I have a new perspective and I have the drive to make them happen, I couldn’t get a loan fine, I’ll keep saving, working, trying, and well this. I don’t know if I’ll get embarrassed and take it down but what do I gotta lose except that pesky pride. You may wonder why 5,000 well that’s all part of my plan pay of deposit, and first, a couple months after so I won’t have to worry for a short while and invest the rest of my funds into  the plans I’ve made out to get of cycle of single mom and amazing waitress. To many people on my level 5000 is a lot, it really is. A lot to ask for and I don’t expect anything but you can’t catch a fish if you don’t throw a line. Even as a homeless person I didn’t do hand outs, I cleaned houses, performed on the street (busk), and whatever hustle I could to avoid being a statistic or seen as less than. Not saying that doing that makes anyone less, I just hate feeling hopeless. I’ve recently started building credit from absolute none, but have a steady income, and what I thought was enough credibility for a loan of any kind, wanted to be an adult about it. I’ll admit I got too excited and the disappointment killed me but it brought me here, because maybe someone will read my tale, and feel my drive, feel my love for my son, and believe in my dreams, I had to pull myself out of an ugly depression because I had to give up my place, COVID has me temporarily laid off from my job.  I wanna be and do more than Serve, and I will buy it pays the bills for now, and has for years, but its a gamble on the mind, body, and wallet. What I am asking for is a foundation, a home base that I can make my own, and start to make life happen for me again as I have started to stop stepping in my own way. I don’t want to pay to live in living rooms, I want my son to have his room back, and a back yard where we can create together, I just want a chance to show my family and the rest of this world that nothing I’ve ever been dealt good or bad has been taken for granted and I’m gonna be someone, I’m gonna do things, but it’s hard when you live for everyday, paying paying paying people in hopes that they won’t mind you in their space, or feel unappreciated in anyway, a long with many other issues that come with staying with others.... sorry if this is long, and not considered a worthy enough story or reason to get on gofundme, but I know sometimes people need people. Right now I need people to invest in me, and the goals and dreams I have brewing, for a better life for my son and I, as well as my plans to be part of molding a better world. Yeah it’s that deep ha! Thank you for reading my story, even if you don’t donate, I know I can do this on my own too,  with time, and discipline but time is not on my side as much as I’d like, and I just know with this or any help I’ll be able to pick myself up again, and be the person and parent that I and my son deserve. ❤️