Isys Leilani Blackwelder

I copied this from my loving wife's page. For those that don't know please read below. We will not be having a service as it is something she didn't want. I will be setting up a go fund me, for those who would like to donate instead of please.

I don’t even know how to start this; I wasn’t going to even put anything on here. Writing this down makes it real. It means I can’t wake up from the nightmare. It means that my baby girl is really gone.

February 6, 2024 at 1654, Isys Leilani Blackwelder passed away at 19 years old. She has been described as an empath, a bright light, a wise soul, a smart ass, cynical, sarcastic, beautiful, amazing, intelligent, compassionate, daughter, sister, friend, granddaughter and piece of my soul.

She has affected so many in her short life. Everywhere she went. Even when she didn’t know that she did. She has brought people together, loved and been loved by so many.

Her challenges with autism, depression and bullying took a toll on her. She was not emotionally equipped to live in this world. She was not equipped to take on the pain of others as she so often did. She was a square peg trying to fit into a round hole of expectations of her. And, no matter how much we loved her….I loved her….she was tired and in pain.

I want to apologize in advance. I will be unresponsive. I won’t take some phone calls. I am not ignoring anyone. I am simply trying to cope, as is everyone in our family. Every message I respond to makes me relive this horrible ordeal. Every phone call I take makes me question what signs I missed, how come I couldn’t love her enough to make her stay, why, why, why?

I know lots of people who want to help and be there for us. I just don’t know what myself or anyone directly affected by this needs right now. I am sure things will come up and I am going to try to be strong enough to ask for help. So, please be patient. I do ask that you try to check in with me, just please don’t be upset if I am not capable of responding. I don’t know what to do or say or feel.