In memory of my older brother, Mateusz.

Hello, my name is Micah, I'm 22, and my older brother died by his own hand on the morning of Friday the 6th of June. My family and I aren't very high income at all, with myself not being able to work at all due to mental and physical barriers. My brother passed in Poland after flying there a week before his death, our home country, but we all live in England at the moment. We have barely enough money for the funeral itself, with having to borrow some from multiple channels in order to afford it, let alone for plane tickets and appropriate funeral clothes and such. Anything donated will go toward helping pay back debts or funding anything related to his funeral or our journey there. I just want to make it easier for my family.

My brother was an aspiring artist and made music as early as I have memories of him - he is one of the big reasons I have as much love for music in my own life as I do, even if not the exact same genres. I don't personally write music, but I have had an interest in and write poetry as a hobby since my late teens - we were similar in that way, we love the power words have. He was always so supportive of me in any aspect of my life, but most notably my self expression; every time I would have a new hair colour or new piercings or tattoos he would hype me up, saying he wished he could be as cool and confident as me, and other things along those lines. Our younger brother, 9, showed a massive interest in football since he was able to first walk, and Matt was always his biggest supporter, even being the person who chose the number on his kits, 11, an angel number.

He struggled throughout his life with mental health, and in the end he persevered 31 years before being unable to bare it anymore. All I want is at least as much of a stress-free celebration of his life as possible, as my family is already struggling so much emotionally, and donating even a pound would help me take at least a little of that financial-side stress off their backs.

Please know you are not alone. Please, please, please ask for help if you need it. You deserve to live - if not for others, then for yourself. You deserve to see what you look like with saggy skin and grey hairs. You deserve to feel that gift physically - the gift of growing old.

Thank you in advance to anyone who donates or shares, me and my family thank you whole heartedly.