Im reaching out for help..... my car was totaled.

On November 9th, I got into my first accident, ever. My front tire blewout, pulling me into the concrete median on the highway, at a pretty high speed.  I was told I'm lucky to not have any serious injuries, or worse. I walked away with only a very small scratch on one hand. My car, however, was totaled.  While I am greatful to not have been hurt, and I keep hearing everyone say "The car is replaceable," I have been struggling to to keep this all in perspective. You see, for me, the opportunities that car provided, the security,  THESE things are not replaceable, as I have no means to replace the car. I have no savings to pull from. I have no family members in a position to help. In that quick moment that it took for my car to be 'gone', I lost what ensured my being able to get to and from the Food Bank everyday and the travel required while working, to and from appointments, stores, family functions, doctor appointments, and so on.... I have come so far in the past few years, worked very hard, and within minutes its all in jeopardy of being lost. I don't want this to be the end of my journey. I want to be able to look back, years from now, and remember this as the beginning. And I'm scared. Scared that I won't be able to continue with what I've started and to keep moving forward, and feel this amazing feeling of being proud of myself and waking up every day looking forward to whats ahead, because this wasn't always the case for me. I want my kids to continue to see me grow and for their pride to grow as well. Also, I can't be just another statitstic who didn't succeed. That, strange enough, was the title of my graduation speech from the Speakers Bureau,  'Beyond the Statistics.'  I want to prove to people who may doubt me and my ability to succeed that I CAN make it. So that they may look at the next person in a similar situation and encourage, uplift, support and believe in them. I live in an area where everone is struggling, to different degrees, but EVERYONE is struggling. The everyday fight we face leaves little room for any hope or focus on a future. It actually, unfortunately, pushes people in the other direction. Hopelessness, despair, crime and drugs. I want to show the people who are watching me that there IS hope. We can have a different life. We aren't invisible. People DO care.  I now have an amazing support system, which is all new to me. Someone from that support system suggested I start a gofundme page. I was hesitant, as I hate to ask for help.  I'm ashamed to be needing MORE help. But, if I don't reach out, I risk failing at this opportunity that I have, so here I am, asking for help. I love love love my VISTA position. Mostly because of all the amazing people I work with and also the people I meet through my work. A few times I have left a work site having met a volunteer or client who has shown me the meaning of selflessness. I have been inspired to do better and be better. To love unconditionally. To see without judgement.  ALL of these people are a part of my healing process. Every single one. Individually and collectively. I also know now, how good it feels to be helping others in need. Having been hungry more times than I can count, it is an honor to be able to contribute to helping families get such needed food. I'm not ready to give this up. I don't want to give this up. I CAN'T GIVE THIS UP. So I AM reaching out and asking for help. I have a 45 minute drive, each way, to work everyday. I can't honor my commitment without a car. But I need to say that if you contribute to this, IT WON'T BE FOR NOTHING. I will make you all proud of where I go from here, and that's a promise.