Ibogain treatment

This is really hard for me to admit so publicly but as some of you may know this year has been extremely challenging for me. In a moment of deep depression and grief I made a decision that not only hurt me and made me feel awful about myself but also broke my family's heart I relapsed on opiates after 6yrs of sobriety. I have been beating my self up about it and have finally come to a place where it is time for a solution. I contacted some old friends of mine in Ibogain world not only for help in detoxing from the opiates that I'm now physically addicted to but also help me heal and start to face the multifaceted wound of the loss of my father. I in know way think that my dad passing away is a valid excuse for me to have decided to use but the ever present voice that I can generally not listen to was louder than the voice of reason and I decided to instead of face my pain and use my tools I have gained through the 6yrs of sobriety I decided to numb myself. The last month has been awful and full of pain, regret, and shame. Luckily I have been so miserable that I'm more than willing knit this in the bud before it gets any worsen. I have been offered a scholarship to receive an Ibogain treatment at the Ibogain university but I need a little help financially. It is really hard and humbling for me to ask for help like this but I do know that I need to reach out to my community that has been so helpful this entire year and ask for help. The cost of the treatment with the scholarship is $3,500 which includes one flood dose for the detox off of the opiates, booster doses that are small doses of Ibogain that help keep your opiate receptors filled with neuroibogain which reduces craving, messages and acupuncture, yoga and tai chi, and accommodations for 7 days in Rosarita mexico. I know that if I can get through the initial withdrawals and start to face the multitude of issues I'm having at the moment I can begin the process of healing and forgiving my self for the trouble I have gotten my self into. I am set to have my treatment on on January 16th and I have a little bit of money to put towards it but seriously anything helps even if it's just a simple share with your friends. I have a solid aftercare program in place because i know what I need to do to get back on track I just need to get through the withdrawals with out taking suboxone or methadone both of which are toxic medications that I have had awful experiences with in the past. This is so hard and humbling for me to do this but this is seriously life or death for me and I choose life and to bask in the sunshine of the spirit. Thank you to all of my friends and loved ones for your never ending support especially in this extremely trying time for me. ❤️