I want to smile... I want to survive.

You ever notice how I never actually smile like a normal human being in any photo of me? It's cuz I know. I'm not blind. I have spent the majority of my life now feeling like I am hideous and having low self-esteem cuz I KNOW how my teeth look. I can't recall ever getting to smile like a normal person and be confident in it.

Two years ago I went to a dentist in LV to try to see what my options were even tho I was pretty sure I wouldn't be able to afford it. I was right. They quoted me it would take 16 THOUSAND dollars to fix my teeth and even worse, continued degeneration could lead to things like shortening my life via heart issues from decay getting into my blood. That was more money than I would EVER have in my lifetime in my mind. Impossible. So, I shut down. I just kinda accepted, "I am going to hate myself and die but, at least if that's the case I will do my best to make others happy in my lifetime."

I have done alot of things over the years. Project Management, Community Building, Voice Acting, vTubing. These things have given me a reason to want to still be here while making people's days brighter. But now the degeneration of my teeth is starting to threaten how I sound. This could lose me voice acting. Lose me vTubing. Lose me getting to sound like me and entertaining you. I don't want to lose that.

At the time of writing this, just today, I went to an exam and consultation on my teeth here in MI. The total listed in this GFM is what it will cost to fix my teeth with the lowest options. I am so sorry to be asking for your help on this. I don't know if I even deserve it. But I'm asking cuz... I want to smile with you. I want to live longer. I want to feel confident in myself. I want to keep giving you my all for as long as I can and not secretly hate myself in my own mind.

Anyway, if you have read all this, thank you. If you have shared this, thank you. If you have donated, thank you. If you have cared about me, just... thank you.

Thank you.