I don't regret self deporting to Mexico because legally this is where I belong. Also all of the abuse and hardship I endured while in the states in my 28 years there I was genuinely in fear for my safety and livelihood in the United States. I felt like leaving was the best thing for me and my family. So no regrets there, I do regret coming to Ensenada though. I was told about the job market. How much slower it is here and harder to find a job. While there has been good suggestions from people on my Instagram. A lot of those suggestions do require me to have a computer with higher specs than the one I have now or are out of my reach due to me not having reliable transportation.

I regret coming here because due to my lack of work here my partner and I are separating, I'm falling back into old habits, and whatever momentum I had coming to Mexico is gone. While I fully understand a GoFundMe is not a permanent fix, I would like to use this as a chance to get on my feet, move back to Tijuana for more work opportunities, and find some hope.

At the moment I am still applying to jobs online and in person with no luck. Whichever goal I reach first wether that be enough for a better computer or a reliable vehicle I'm going to go for whatever gets me working the fastest.

(p.s. I'll also fight for money if that's an option)