My name is Nikki , In 2019 I was diagnosed with melanoma eye cancer. Through all the treatments , the damage to my eye was so severe I had to have my eye removal surgery. The pain afterwards was unbearable and even today the pain will forever be there .

The prosthetic eye that I have now is deteriorating and no longer fits me ,it has been causing me more pain and infections.

A Prosthetic eyes will only last anywhere from 3-5 years . I have no health insurance and my province will not cover it .believe me when I say it’s been 8 years I have tried everything!!!! It all looks great when you Google coverage until , you call ,email , write , then write more letters , call more then fill out 100,s of forms just to be told NO !

I will have to travel to Halifax to receive another prosthetic eye . The cost of just the eye $6000.00 out of pocket,

when I was diagnosed with my eye cancer, I was told I had to travel to Toronto for treatments out of pocket each time.

Due to the radiation treatments I now also have everyday migraines that I will forever have . My neurologist has tried everything to help me with my pain , it’s just something I have to live with it’s taken a few years to adjust to lights and noise but I do my best .

Cancer effects you In ways unless you have to go through it it’s hard to place into words .

It takes everything from you ., Emotionally,financially,physically, mentally your self worth .

I have lost myself along this journey, I’m no longer the Nikki I once was , I lost that fire I had to fight through everything life throw at me . I have no family that has helped me , my daughter was there through all the healing from my surgery and sickness. It’s not fare this is my illness and I understand that ,

I am embarrassed to get on this public platform and ask for help !

My prosthetic eye is braking down it causes so many infections , pain . I have already lost so much of myself through this journey . All I would like is to look in the mirror and see myself, I’ll never be the woman I was before cancer I know that . I would just like to go out of the house . I’m exhausted in every way !

I have to do this out of pocket which I’ve had to do since day, one going back-and-forth in Toronto and Halifax, for my treatments, and Halifax for my eye removal surgery. they are not covered do the fact that it’s my eye. It is very frustrating emotional tiring it’s taking everything from me. No one realize how much cancer does to a person even after treatments it forever stays with you .

Your self-esteem is gone , If I knew then the pain and suffering along with having no family the whole time ( besides my daughter who I’m more then grateful for !!! I would never of gone through with the treatment and eye removal surgery. I know it sounds harsh , but my body is tired . The thought of losing my eye again is devastating to me .

I know it’s sad to say with me being a mom, but having my kids watch me go through this is even more heartbreaking.

I don’t have the funds to pay for this my cancer has put me on disability it’s is actually impossible. I hate to ask for help I really truly am I feel like I failed ! This is something that I have to do I can’t stay in the house in the dark anymore? I don’t go anywhere I miss my friends; my headaches are excruciating my eye causes headaches and pain on top of the daily migraines , I get from the radiation treatment . I just want to feel like part of my old self before cancer came knocking.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I wish you all the best in life , happiness and health. Thank you again I appreciate you all