I Hate 2020
Donation protected
Unkind is the only word I can use to describe the last 7 months. People I love have died. Family has walked away. My body has, at best, decided that anything that can go wrong, will go wrong. And now? My living situation is extremely precarious.
I know - I'm one of millions in this position. There's only so much to go around in the face of a pandemic, an economic collapse, fires, protests, etc etc etc.
But here's where I am at.
Due to *everything,* my medication delivery isn't reliable. Nor is my ability to get a ride anywhere (can't drive, obviously for medical reasons) and in my last attempt I ended up on the sidewalk, incoherent, being loaded into an ambulance. For trying to walk to pick up my meds. Shortly thereafter for reasons I don't want to currently get angry about, my home situation was made very questionable.
The bottom line is, I'm just another person being cast aside in the midst of chaos. All the assistance programs are overwhelmed, the things those of us on disability rely on are not functioning properly, and everyone is so stressed and hurt it's putting people's lives at risk.
I am still awaiting approval from insurance to see a cardiologist, neurologist, on and on. Maybe the stress is killing me. I don't know.
Either way, I can't keep up. I've tried. This might sound tired, worn out, and it is. I am so tired. One step forward equals ten back. I'm not alright.
You don't have to help - I understand fully we're all suffering greatly. If you know me personally and can't, please, just reach out as a friend. I need that too. If you're unsure about this, also reach out. If there's one thing I'm not short of it's paperwork and pills to show you I'm in deep water.
I will gladly explain anything in detail to anyone if there is something you have questions about. And if you have nothing, don't feel bad - we're all engaged in this collective misery. I understand, and I wish the best for you as well. <3
I know - I'm one of millions in this position. There's only so much to go around in the face of a pandemic, an economic collapse, fires, protests, etc etc etc.
But here's where I am at.
Due to *everything,* my medication delivery isn't reliable. Nor is my ability to get a ride anywhere (can't drive, obviously for medical reasons) and in my last attempt I ended up on the sidewalk, incoherent, being loaded into an ambulance. For trying to walk to pick up my meds. Shortly thereafter for reasons I don't want to currently get angry about, my home situation was made very questionable.
The bottom line is, I'm just another person being cast aside in the midst of chaos. All the assistance programs are overwhelmed, the things those of us on disability rely on are not functioning properly, and everyone is so stressed and hurt it's putting people's lives at risk.
I am still awaiting approval from insurance to see a cardiologist, neurologist, on and on. Maybe the stress is killing me. I don't know.
Either way, I can't keep up. I've tried. This might sound tired, worn out, and it is. I am so tired. One step forward equals ten back. I'm not alright.
You don't have to help - I understand fully we're all suffering greatly. If you know me personally and can't, please, just reach out as a friend. I need that too. If you're unsure about this, also reach out. If there's one thing I'm not short of it's paperwork and pills to show you I'm in deep water.
I will gladly explain anything in detail to anyone if there is something you have questions about. And if you have nothing, don't feel bad - we're all engaged in this collective misery. I understand, and I wish the best for you as well. <3
Organizer
Nicole Larrett
Organizer
Oak Harbor, WA