Huntinton's is detroying my life

Today I lost my 6th job this year, because I have Huntington's disease. I have never been fired from any job. I have worked multiple jobs for years to be able applied for disability and it was on the list of diseases that are not denied, but I was. They said I walk and talk fine. I  have to pay for a specialist, because I have no insurance until my claim is done.

I don't know Mike, my husband is going to come back. Because the disease itself or the anger I have for knowing I have it I have been abusive to him and have taken him for granted. He keeps telling me I won't take ownership of what I did? That should do it. 

I realized a little over a year ago that my childhood was not easy with my father who had this disease. He was incredibly angry and our house was full  of arguing. I thought that was normal. So I spent my first 20 years being  yelled at and second twenty yelling at everyone else. I have also tried to not behave that way anymore. 

I am looking at having to wait months to find out. I cannot bear to tell my kids or my husband we can not celebrate for the third year. Because the bills are piling up and the incomes are not what they need to be.  I actually hate to beg for anything and have worked so hard just to end up alone and helpless?