The past month or so has been extremely difficult for me and Im sure a lot of you as well.  The word widow has become extremely powerful to me these last few weeks. No one ever wants to become a widow of course and most can not dream of this happening to them, much less at the age of 29. More importantly lossing someone you love so much and have had so many amazing years with.

Of course my life has changed forever and all of my plans for a future with Blaine have now evaporated into thin air never to be seen again. I am not saying any of this for anyone to feel sorry for me or feel as though they owe me anything, Im simlpy trying to explain the feelings that I go through everyday and to try and shed some light on the naked truth of the situation I am now in. 

It is unimaginable to go through this experience of losing a spouse and whats more losing your future that you have worked so hard to have. In a single moment I lost the love of my life along with my best friend, confidant, my home, financial stablility and a city I loved with all my heart. In a normal situation I would not ask for this in a million years; however my desperation in this particular situation calls for an exception. 

I know we all are well aware of  how extremely intelligent Blaine was and how talented he was. Im sure we have all been proven wrong and corrected many a times over by Mr. Law and I never thought I would miss that! That being said I guess I shall get to the point of all this... With Blaine's departer I was given the hard reality (that I already knew but did not expect to lose) that he was the bread winner in our household and brought in the majoirity of our income. 

I have had to make some very challenging decisions in the last month or so not just pertaininng to the finacial issue but things you do not think of as a spouse that you will be doing (like planning a funeral etc.).  I have made the decision to move to Dallas in an effort to be closer to my support network and it is a lower cost of living.

I sold my car when Blaine and I thought we would be staying in Chicago for the indefinate future as we did not need one there. Luckily we took Blaine's car to my parents house and they have stored it there since. Now I am trying to get Blaine's car (which we left at my parents the last few years) up and running. Unfortunatly his car needs some work and I do not have the money to repair it. I also do not thave the money to go to doctors apts, (I have a few out of the ordinary medical conditions) and need prescriptions refilled. I also need transportation in Dallas until I get Blaines car working (however long that takes) and basic living costs until I get a job in Dallas.

Unfortunatly after Blaine's passing I was dropped with another large bomb shell regarding some very personal things that I can tell you individually if you would like (please message me privately and this will be discussed in person). My parents have been amazing but they are unable to help me as much as I need right now. I am in a desperate position, hence this request...

I would be eternilly greatful if I could get a little help finacially from my friends and family. I do not expect anything but when you get desperate you do desperate things. I have learned to ask for help in this experience when needed. I honestly could never repay the people who have helped and supported me already and that goes for anyone willing to help get me back on my feet. 
Wether you can help me or not finacially, know that I am so greatful for each one of you and the support and love you have shown me so far. If you can spare anything I mean ANYTHING it would help so much  with trying to start my life over.

Thank you all for being a part of Blaines life and for loving him and me so much, I know he loved you all too!

Sincerely, 
Kate A Law