"You have Invasive Breast Cancer" I never expected to hear those words. I'm sure no one does. It's amazing how with just a few words your world can be so violently shaken. On January 13, 2017 I was given this horrible news. It's taken me some time to process everything, to let it sink in. So many feelings, so many emotions to process. Am I going to die? What about the kids? They can't lose their mom! I'm not ready to go! What do I do next? This is going to be so painful! I don't want to lose my hair. I don't want to lose my breasts. Oh my gosh, has it spread? I don't know if I can do this! Why did this happen?! Those are just some of the thoughts that race through my mind. Thankfully I've been blessed with amazing family and friends, who speak such comfort and peace into my life. They truly have been so loving and supportive! I've started to see a light at the end of this tunnel. I've gained so much hope by reading stories of victory and triumph that other women in my position wear proudly, after beating Breast Cancer. I am going to beat this!!! That's the attitude I've decided I've GOT to keep throughout this whole process! I am going to live a long happy life! My chidren will have a mother who is hopeful, determined, strong, inspiring, and victorious! I am determined to Kick Cancers Ass! This is, and I'm sure will continue to be, a very difficult and emotional process for me. Full of many tough decisions, that I never expected to be forced to make. It has been recommended that I have Chemotherapy and Radiation treatments. Until I myself was diagnosed with Cancer, I didn't realize how controversial these medical treatments are. This has lead me to also research many different holistic healing practices. I strongly believe in the power of our food, how it can give life and encourage and strengthen our bodies to heal, but it can also damage our bodies and aid in many illnesses and disease. After many discussions with my family, and some very deep soul searching, I have decided that what's best for me, is to go ahead with the doctors suggested treatment plan, in hopes of killing this cancer as quickly as possible, while also focusing on a very healthy life full of only vitamin enriched food, strengthening suppliments, and as active of a lifestyle as possible! I am putting all of my hope and trust in this plan for my life. In a couple of weeks I will start my chemotherapy treatments. This will take around 5 months to complete. During this time I will also be having lots of different tests and scans, that will ultimately create a surgery plan. As of now, we are planning on a double mastectomy, including lymph nodes. Further tests will show if we will go ahead and remove my ovaries as well. Followed by some radiation, and a year of treatment for the Her2 disease that I tested positive for. I look forward to spending the rest of my life, treating my body with kindness and love, excercising this new healthy lifestyle to prevent any future disease! It's going to be a long, hard, emotional road! And even though I've had some time to sit on this and weigh out all of my options, it still feels like it's happening so fast. As you can imagine, all of these things are very expensive! Insurance covers a lot... but not all! There will be times that I will not be able to work, and will most likely be very sick. Finances seem to always be an issue when you are raising 2 teenagers, but now more than ever, its become the main point of stress and fear for me. Monthly bills and expenses add up fast, treatments, and therapies on top of that... Whew, it's overwhelming! This is where YOU come in!! I am humbly asking all of my friends, family, and anyone else who feels an impression on their heart, to help me and my family through this hard time. Any size donation will help! We are so thankful for every single dollar. Please keep me in your prayers, I would be lying if I said that I wasn't scared. But I have HOPE!! I'm ready to gather up every ounce of strength that I have, and do whatever I can, to come out on the other side of this! Please also think of my children and send them as many loving thoughts as you can during this time.
I love and appriciate all of you!! I look forward to updating you during the entire process, and conquering this thing called Cancer!