The only picture of us together in a recent age is blurry, taken back around 2010. One couldn't help but shake near the energy we would make. She made the whole earth quake the day I was made, my birth was devastating to those awake. Normalcy is a phrase that could never contain all the ways we embraced the strange. So much love in two hearts and brains. Mother, where my roots grew and this flower bloomed, for my light was from you. Every sly escape, major or subtle mistake, nothing I would ever change. Not the brutal news of hate nor moments in which one of us would break. In our weaknesses we found strength. Now I've reached my weakest accepting that you're away. And this I can't change. This is always. Forever in all ways. I wish I could have been everything you knew I am, I wish I could dazzle and amaze and look back to see your face. Now I have to without your praise. I love you mommy, I loved you every day, I missed you already and it hurts more than anything to think. To know I it's from your shadow alone I must raise.

I'll never be the same.
Rest in Peace.
Free finally from this place.
Free of the chains of the mortal race.
Free from the pain that life brings.
It'll be an honor to join you one day.