Help LZ & Family Through His Pancreatic Surgery
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Hi everyone. It’s LZ. I have some really bad news at a really bad time & I apologize in advance. I’m super sick & I’m in the hospital scheduled to have a serious mandatory surgery Monday April 13.
Several weeks ago I was diagnosed with Chronic Pancreatitis. There couldn’t be a worse time to ask for help - this is something I’ve had mixed emotions over (Go Fund Me Accounts) but I have no choice.
The pancreas is a sometimes misunderstood organ. We do know a couple things though. The pain associated with pancreatitis is monumental and very well known. When your pancreas is compromised it’s a very bad and life-threatening thing. And you can forget about it if you have pancreatic cancer. Life expectancy is down to months. I’ve dodged the cancer so far.
If you know me personally or anything about me, you know I live for my children. That my children are the center of my world and I live each second for them. I am asking for your help - for them. I have had sole custody without a dime of help for my two oldest (Dani & Jack) for the last 11 years. I took custody of them as I was beginning to come out of a 6 year long personal tailspin of suicidal depression and addiction. I set those things aside and rebuilt my life back together brick by brick for 11 years. Never relapsing and growing, thriving and loving life exponentially. I share custody of my youngest (Toni) with her mother.
If there’s another thing you know about me, I’ve overcome monumental obstacles and I work ridiculously hard. I love my band the Pistoleros. I work for myself- I do courier & concierge work for a handful of awesome Lawyer friends of mine who are public defenders, and I get handyman work by referral. Then around late afternoon & on weekends I go and play gigs for 3-4 hours several nights a week. I’ve had the luxury of being there for my kids and for their school schedules for the last 11 years. Every lunch made, every drop off and pick up etc., and I love every second.
ALL of my musical gigs have been cancelled, due to the pandemic. I work for some awesome people. Mike Maloney llc., Gertrudes, NicknTonis, Good Time Charlis, Gypsys Roadhouse, the list is too long. Fervor Records.
Worst of all - the surgery I have to get, it’s called a Whipple. It is extremely invasive, painful and recovery time is several months. The 1st month being torturous at best. I could go on and on and if you want to message me after the surgery sometime, I’d be glad to give you updates if possible. My friends, I love you. Everyone is so beautiful, nice and respectful to me. Thank you. It’s so very hard not to let things lay on thick. I’ve been here @ Scottsdale Shea for 6 days and will be here something like 25 total days when it’s all over. The writings on the wall. Obviously the risk of me possibly dying are present. The world is in a mandatory pandemic lock down & the hospital has moved the surgery up, It was scheduled for June 12th. They moved it up to this Monday April 13.
I am here completely alone. No visitors allowed. And I will be here alone until way after the surgery. I have contemplated everything. I haven’t watched any TV. I Have not turned it on. I’ve been meditating on whatever I can find positive and what this life is really about.
Thank God I’ve been a big reader my entire life. I know my history ethnically and otherwise and I know I am not the only person on earth who has /is suffering.
There is no bucket list. For me that’s a myth. I want to spend every second I can with my kids, Anne and the ones I love.
Again, I apologize for reaching out like this & I love you. It took everything in me to compose this. I won’t be managing the go fund me site/page. Dani will be handling it all. Say hey to Dani. She’s an awesome human being. Seriously a very special beautiful soul. Say hey to Jack too if you run into him out there in downtown Phoenix. He is the sweetest kid ever.
My greatest accomplishment in life is the relationship my kids have with each other. They love each other dearly & let each other know frequently. Annie. There are no words to describe my love for you. You recognized in me something I could not in myself. You made me proud of my accomplishments and you have been the most beautiful spiritual mother to my kids. I was single for 8 years my love. You have showed me a joy I thought would escape me in this life.
Thank you. So many of you are on my mind. Some of you I’ve known for 30 + years. Some under 5. I’m super proud of my friends who have little ones & not so little ones. Our little ones are who really matter.
If I told you I wasn’t scared to death.
I’d be lying.
I am.
Several weeks ago I was diagnosed with Chronic Pancreatitis. There couldn’t be a worse time to ask for help - this is something I’ve had mixed emotions over (Go Fund Me Accounts) but I have no choice.
The pancreas is a sometimes misunderstood organ. We do know a couple things though. The pain associated with pancreatitis is monumental and very well known. When your pancreas is compromised it’s a very bad and life-threatening thing. And you can forget about it if you have pancreatic cancer. Life expectancy is down to months. I’ve dodged the cancer so far.
If you know me personally or anything about me, you know I live for my children. That my children are the center of my world and I live each second for them. I am asking for your help - for them. I have had sole custody without a dime of help for my two oldest (Dani & Jack) for the last 11 years. I took custody of them as I was beginning to come out of a 6 year long personal tailspin of suicidal depression and addiction. I set those things aside and rebuilt my life back together brick by brick for 11 years. Never relapsing and growing, thriving and loving life exponentially. I share custody of my youngest (Toni) with her mother.
If there’s another thing you know about me, I’ve overcome monumental obstacles and I work ridiculously hard. I love my band the Pistoleros. I work for myself- I do courier & concierge work for a handful of awesome Lawyer friends of mine who are public defenders, and I get handyman work by referral. Then around late afternoon & on weekends I go and play gigs for 3-4 hours several nights a week. I’ve had the luxury of being there for my kids and for their school schedules for the last 11 years. Every lunch made, every drop off and pick up etc., and I love every second.
ALL of my musical gigs have been cancelled, due to the pandemic. I work for some awesome people. Mike Maloney llc., Gertrudes, NicknTonis, Good Time Charlis, Gypsys Roadhouse, the list is too long. Fervor Records.
Worst of all - the surgery I have to get, it’s called a Whipple. It is extremely invasive, painful and recovery time is several months. The 1st month being torturous at best. I could go on and on and if you want to message me after the surgery sometime, I’d be glad to give you updates if possible. My friends, I love you. Everyone is so beautiful, nice and respectful to me. Thank you. It’s so very hard not to let things lay on thick. I’ve been here @ Scottsdale Shea for 6 days and will be here something like 25 total days when it’s all over. The writings on the wall. Obviously the risk of me possibly dying are present. The world is in a mandatory pandemic lock down & the hospital has moved the surgery up, It was scheduled for June 12th. They moved it up to this Monday April 13.
I am here completely alone. No visitors allowed. And I will be here alone until way after the surgery. I have contemplated everything. I haven’t watched any TV. I Have not turned it on. I’ve been meditating on whatever I can find positive and what this life is really about.
Thank God I’ve been a big reader my entire life. I know my history ethnically and otherwise and I know I am not the only person on earth who has /is suffering.
There is no bucket list. For me that’s a myth. I want to spend every second I can with my kids, Anne and the ones I love.
Again, I apologize for reaching out like this & I love you. It took everything in me to compose this. I won’t be managing the go fund me site/page. Dani will be handling it all. Say hey to Dani. She’s an awesome human being. Seriously a very special beautiful soul. Say hey to Jack too if you run into him out there in downtown Phoenix. He is the sweetest kid ever.
My greatest accomplishment in life is the relationship my kids have with each other. They love each other dearly & let each other know frequently. Annie. There are no words to describe my love for you. You recognized in me something I could not in myself. You made me proud of my accomplishments and you have been the most beautiful spiritual mother to my kids. I was single for 8 years my love. You have showed me a joy I thought would escape me in this life.
Thank you. So many of you are on my mind. Some of you I’ve known for 30 + years. Some under 5. I’m super proud of my friends who have little ones & not so little ones. Our little ones are who really matter.
If I told you I wasn’t scared to death.
I’d be lying.
I am.
Organizer and beneficiary
Daniela Mock-Zubia
Organizer
Scottsdale, AZ
Lawrence Zubia
Beneficiary