I honestly don't know how to begin this post. Today is the worst day of my entire life. Nothing, and I do mean nothing, is worse than the news we received today. My son Kristian has bone cancer. I don't know specifics, yet. I do know it's aggressive. I do know that I'm laying next to him watching him sleep as I have done so many times before with a sadness I have never felt before in my heart. I can't even explain how I feel. I don't know whether to curse God or pray to him. I can't put into words the mix of emotions I'm feeling. My world has stopped. The minute the word cancer was said everything else stopped mattering. He's the child everyone hopes for. He's kind, smart, gentle, generous, funny. He's the child that to this day asks you how you slept or how was your day. He's the child that worries about everyone else. My heart is breaking. I am hopeful, drs and nurses are wonderful, but I'm also so angry that I can't take this pain away or do whatever needs to be done. I can't help thinking what could I have done differently. I'm not saying that it's about me, what I'm saying is I would do anything if they could just transport this into me and let me go through everything that's ahead of him while he goes back to being that kid that loves to go to school, loves his friends and family, loves all animals if I could just take it all away. That's all I want I want him out of pain and out of anything else. I want the miracle. He deserves it. He's my light and my heart. Please don't ask me any questions right now about it because I honestly can't even think straight. Please pray. If I don't answer your calls or texts it's because I either have no battery or I just can't talk about it. Please pray also for my family, his dad, his step mom, his brother, cousin grandparents etc. I don't know what else to say, I just need him out of this pain. I don't care about anything else right now. I can't stand this. He deserves so much. My heart is broken.
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