Help Celeste Survive

I’ll explain myself better for those of you who don’t know me or know what’s going on in my life. My name is Celeste, I’m 24, and I have an autoimmune disease called Lupus. I got diagnosed at the age of 18 and that’s when everything started going downhill for me. All of my symptoms were off the charts. I lost a lot of so called friends because I couldn’t physically go out and do the things normal teenagers do. I got this rash on my face from being allergic to the sun, I lost and gained weight at a rapid pace, and even lost my hair. I’ve been diagnosed with acute kidney failure and have done chemo for it 4 times now. The doctor’s have said the chemo isn’t working so I’m probably looking at having to do dialysis or a transplant. On top of all of my health conditions, my wrist is fractured and my back is losing bones from low bone density so I can’t stand or walk for long periods of time, and it’s hard to do things on my own most of the time. Doing simple easy tasks around the house is devastatingly hard for me. It’s changed my whole life completely. I stopped doing the things I loved the most and at one part of my life I decided to stop taking my medication because I wanted to die. Now, I finally have a reason to live because I’ve stopped searching for my happiness in other people and found it within myself. Lately though, life has been hitting me like a brick. My car was illegally sold to me with fraudulent paperwork and ended up getting repossessed because the original owner still had to make payments on it and didn’t inform me. That was my only means of transportation to get to my appointments. I’m in medical debt up to my throat and I owe my best friend $500. Being stressed causes flare-ups in my lupus and only causes my health to get worse. At the age of 21 I had a full hip replacement because of this steroid called prednisone that I’ve had to be on to maintain my flare-ups and pain and it’s caused other serious health issues for me. I’ve had to stop taking it and every day is pain for me. I don’t make money often because I can’t work so I have to depend on the government to help me even have a place to stay. I used to be too kind, too trusting, and naïve. At this point I’m losing sight of what there is to live for anymore. I’m physically and mentally tired all the time. I go to therapy and I have a psychiatrist, I have extreme depression, anxiety, PTSD, and ADHD. I don’t want to give up just yet and I’m not trying to put my weight on anyone else, I just want everyone to know how serious my situation is. A donation of even $5 or just sharing the post would help me more than you can imagine. I was so happy to have my own car because at least then I would be able to care for myself properly but now I’m lost. Thank you for taking the time to read this and please send me your prayers, good/healing vibes and please do anything to help me out. I just want to get back to being happy and stress free, back before I ever got sick. I know that isn’t possible but I’m doing everything I can at this moment to at least make this life worth living.