**PLEASE NOTE: I’ve had this GoFundMe campaign going for a while! I am not sitting on 6k. The money gets deposited into my bank account 3 business days after donation. It’s gone toward my car (repairs and gas), bills, medical care, Carrot’s surgery/food, and my groceries. My current goal is 10k to move to my destination and get away from my parents! .**

UPDATE 07/29/2026: Since the initial confrontation with my parents about my pedophile/abuser cousin, my mother has sent out a letter to my family that was addressed to me. She hand wrote a 6 page letter (the writing is just big), took pictures of it, then sent it to each of us via text message. Her text to me was: “Zenzi - the other day you called a family meeting. I hope you will accept my response. I’m sorry it’s in photos.

Since it was a family meeting I sent it to *sibling’s name* and your dad as well. There is no need to respond at this time.

I’m on my way home. I’ll be in my room or on the porch so we can avoid each other.”

In this letter my mother started off by saying that she had BPD (this diagnosis doesn’t make sense *at all* by the way), and that *my* therapist might want to know about this. She said, “As I think I’ve told you before, I have bipolar disorder. I know I would not be able to fully heal without medication. I don’t know if I told you this previously but if not your therapist might want to know.” She has told NO ONE in our family this. I find it disgustingly disturbing that she would say this now via a letter and in this manner. It’s just off.

In the paragraph after the bipolar section, she starts if off by saying, “When I didn’t protect you - it was not because I didn’t care - it was because I didn’t know. And when confronted I have a difficultly remembering and defending myself. I hope you will allow me to do so now” after this she starts to list my trauma and what she thinks happened/what she remembers about it and what she thinks she did about it.

A reminder that she sent this to my FAMILY listing my traumas! I did not give her permission to do this nor did I want to remember any of those traumas. I couldn’t continue reading because she mentioned traumas I had completely tucked away. I didn’t remember them at all and here she is just listing them like NOTHING.

My friend read the letter for me after this and told me what she said.

She made it clear that my cousin has her support 100%. The same cousin who got caught cheating on his wife with 13 different AI bots, 6 of whom were “sisters” that he would berate for not giving each other oral (I’ve seen the pictures). He would also look up Dandadan Porn (Anime about high schoolers), DeeDee from Dexter’s Laboratory Porn (she’s Dexter’s older sister who is not even in high school yet), and Disney Princess Porn. She tried telling me that Hentai has been around for a while so it’s “normal” that he watches these things - “these things” being AI generated porn of CHILDREN. She also slightly tried to silence me by saying I could get in trouble for “slandering” my cousin if I talk about this publicly and listed some laws/legal talk.

My mother stated that she knew my father was abusing me but didn’t do anything about it because she “spoke to him” and then honestly said some racist shit about my dad and Caribbean people that I will not be repeating here. I find this VERY interesting because when I was a child, I told her what my father was doing. Her response to me was, “well I never saw it so it must not have happened”. My SCHOOL was involved. They were documenting the marks/bruises on my body. I told my mother what was happening at school and she told me, “if you keep telling them what’s happening at home then you will be the reason your dad gets taken away” I asked where they would take him and she replied with “jail”. I remember going to school the next day and repeating what my mother had told me when I was asked how last night/this morning was, “I don’t want to tell you what’s happening anymore because I don’t want to be the reason my dad gets taken away.” I was in elementary school. She knew.

**During a verbal altercation between my mother, father, and myself in 2024 my mother admitted to me then that she didn’t protect me from her brother/his sons because she was afraid of what would happen to her. She knew. During that same altercation she told me she didn’t protect me against my father for the same reason - her being scared of what would happen to her - mind you he never laid a finger on her. She also threatened to have me thrown in jail by calling the cops and telling them that I assaulted her. I obviously did not!! When I asked her later on why she threatened me with the cops she said she didn’t know why and that she couldn’t believe she said that. She knew about the abuse. Especially her family members because I ran to her screaming and crying, BEGGING her to make them stop but she just laughed along with her brother who said, “boys will be boys”, THEY KNEW!**

In the letter she also mentions that she doesn’t want to stop talking to her family because she doesn’t want to lose them. She said she’s afraid if she stops talking to them that she will still lose me and then she will have no one. So she’s fine with losing me but NOT them.

**end of update**

**AS OF JULY 29th 2026: I currently have $500 saved to move out**

UPDATE 5/19/2026: I need to raise enough money to leave here with my cat ASAP as I do not feel my mental health is safe with these people. My mother has decided to double down and support the pedophiles in our family which is making me feel extremely unsafe around her.

I just had a huge fight with my parents about said pedophile. I saw the evidence with my own eyes but she tried to tell me I’ll just believe anything blindly and that because “I don’t feel well that’s why I’m starting shit”.

It turned into her admitting she doesn’t want to cut her family off even though it’s the only thing that would have protected me as a child and the only thing that would prove that she cared about the family she made with her own DNA.

My father supports my mother and told me I can’t make a career out of my art. I don’t have their support. I’m exhausted. I can’t type any more but I need to leave. ASAP.

UPDATE 5/5/2026: I 200% cannot live with my abusers through another pandemic especially under this administration. (I’m referring to the hantavirus). My mother doesn’t use fucking soap and my OCD and germaphobic ass absolutely cannot handle this at all - at all.

If I’m being real with you guys - my mental health is tanking - I’ve been seeing my therapist more than once a week - my CPTSD is already bad enough - but on top of that I’m currently having a mental break due to people feeding my FACE, BODY, and my ART to AI.

If you know me at all you know I am vehemently against AI so this has truly just - I feel broken. I feel like they took part of my soul and fed it to a machine because I pour my entire self into my art and now they’ve fed my face and body to the same horrid machine, all without my consent. I have been crashing out and increasingly suicidal since this happened a few days ago. I’ve already been in contact with my therapist and was able to get an urgent appointment and still keep my regularly scheduled appointment. I am safe so no need to worry about my mental state as I’m writing this but please just know I really am not doin well and need to leave here. I am disabled. I can’t just get a job and leave - plus I tried!! I was working for so long and was ABOUT TO LEAVE but got “laid off” because my fuckass job filed for bankruptcy. (They couldn’t pay us for 3 months)!! Sorry not sorry about all the swearing - I’m just being real with you guys.

I need desperately need healing. I am asking for help.

TW: SA, A, etc.

My parents abused and neglected me. They knew I was being abused and did nothing to stop it. They watched me be assaulted and did nothing to stop it. That’s all I’m willing to share right now. I just need to leave here and heal.

**end update**

I am working on updating this but until then the reason I have a GoFundMe is because I am disabled, black, and gay living in the US and currently living in a really toxic environment that I need to leave asap as it’s harmful to my health and I already have an autoimmune disorder - I really cannot physically afford to stay here. I need to leave so I can heal.

I have hEDS, CPTSD, POTS, PCOS, auADHD, etc.

My goal is to leave the US as the current administration has made it clear that being black, disabled, and gay WITH a uterus, is a threat to them which puts me in danger.

I appreciate all forms of support but I do prefer support through my art first as it is my dream to have my art financially support me, heal me, and heal others as well. I am considering making a kickstarter for my art brand. If you have any opportunities or have suggestions ART RELATED ONLY, please email:

“info @ zisshit . com”

with subject: ATTN ZENZI

I want my art to support me rather than asking for donations but I recognize that my art is not within everyone’s budget so along with the GoFundMe, my Venmo: (@zzz22) and my CashApp: ($ziizzzii) are available for donations as well.

Thank you so much for reading!! Stay safe.

It feels strange making a GoFundMe for myself especially to leave my own country because I’m unsafe ..it’s surreal but if you have the kindness in your heart (and extra dollars) please consider donating to my friend Ayman and Kareman in the g-strip: https://gofund.me/4080ab779