Help me save my own life

Ive hit an all time low in my life; increasing dangerous self-harm and life-threatening effects of my eating disorder.  I have exhausted many resources, being banned from units and programs because im told i cant be helped. My suicide attempts have become more frequent and my treatment providers believe my dying is imminent.

Its time to try something new. Unfortunately being disabled means what I can afford for my recovery is limited. Therapy 3x per week, $90 copays. Yoga has helped with my PTSD symptoms immensenly but i cant afford them much linger. Ive also been referred to a movement therapist to help with the trauma stored in my body, who I cant currently afford. This is a route Ive never tried. When i get out from this curren th hospitalizations I need reasons to live and have motivation and would live the opportunity to sign up for some adult ed courses.

You may not believe in me, but maybe you could give me a last chance. I dont feel entitled or tend to rely on others but im looking for a miracle as far as opportunities.  If you could find a way to give what you can to help me give myself more options it could chage my quality of life, increase my chances at living, and give me more hope for the future that Im lacking after so long fighting. 
Thank you for your support,  and I promise if you help me reach my goals i will show you the results and pay it forward