Help me get my babys headstone I want it to be very special

My name is Jamie Pridgen many of you know the best thing that ever happened to me is my baby boy Jax Louie Pridgen well I'm at a loss for words my boy went to be with the Lord this past Sunday. This isn't how life was supposed to be. I had so many great things planned for us. I was not ready nor was I prepared for this sudden tragedy. I've never felt more hopeless useless and worthless in my entire life I've never felt any pain like the pain and emptiness I do now. I felt his soul leave and a part of me died to. My heart is broken any help at all is appreciated. At this point and time in life I can't even begin to thank straight. My will power is gone. But I'm trying to stay strong as for my son did amazing things for me in his short time on this earth. He was very loved and all of our hearts are broken please pray extra hard for me and my family and Jaxs family. I'm still at a loss with it all I lose it one minute I'm okay the next it's definitely something I don't wish on my worse enemy. This life just isn't fair. I never thought I'd be able to have my own child then 27 years old here he was 28 giving birth to him and then hes just gone. I keep asking God and telling him I was okay with not being able to have my own child and loving everybody else's why would he give me something that I always hoped and dreamed for and prayed for and then take it from me the only thing that I keep thinking is that he was my angel he was my saving Grace he was sitting here to heal me in ways that nobody else could he served his purpose and he had to go back and be with all the other angels because this world is a scary place these days and times.