My name is Darin Murray. The morning of May 16 I lost the love of my life. We were a month shy of being together 35 years. I need help with his funeral and surviving after. I have AIDS and live on SSI. Without my Joe I can't survive. I also can't pay for his cremation. I have bad mental issues and have relied on him for decades for support in every way. Now without his support I will end up homeless. Let alone being able to have him cremated. Joe let his life insurance lapse I guess. I went to look and saw that it went passed the grace period. Truthfully I just wanna die. But I have fur babies to think of. Joe would kick my ass in heaven if I did that. It's just feeling such a loss. Losing the one person in 54 years that has gotten you. So while I say it because the thought of being without him, is so crushing. It's not something literal, or that I would do. I am just so broken right now. So, no, I will not cause my own death! So numb. I don't know how I am going to deal with his funeral with no money. I need help so badly!!!