Help with covering funeral costs

My mother died unexpectedly from a heart attack two days after Thanksgiving. 

She had an illness that she was recovering from, and everyone thought she was doing great. 

It broke me completely to find out she'd died so suddenly. In my grief I decided following her final wishes of being buried near her family should happen and borrowed money to make sure she could have a proper funeral. 

Unfortunately this not only wiped out my savings but now I owe mone, and this is all causing me some severe anxiety. 

If I can't get help recovering some of the cost of the loans I believe I'll have to put my life on hold, including my passions for writing and the NoPixel community I love so dearly, while I get a second and possibly third job during covid, putting my family at risk if I'm forced to take unsafe jobs.

I've never asked my friends for money before this and it feels wrong and I'm feeling incredible amounts of shame for it. 

And I'm still grieving over my mom. She was only 55 and I don't know how to live without her.

Caskets alone cost thousands of dollars, burial, embalming, first care costs. It all adds up so much. I couldn't even afford to get her a headstone or permanent marker. The funeral home said the temporary ones can last a while, but it feels so wrong.  I don't expect the entire gofund me to be filled. Honestly I don't think anyone will add anything, but my friends keep telling me to do it, and worst case scenario, I'm. Back to square one. If somehow the entire thing is filled I would also be able to get a small permanent headstone for my mothers grave. 

I know it's the holidays and everyone is tight on cash right now. If you do decide to give, please only give what you can and don't miss out on anything for my sake. 

If you can't give, please know I understand, and never expected you to in the first place. Maybe share this with someone? 

But most of all, if you're reading this and you still have someone you care about in this world, please know we never have as much time as we think we do, and call them. Call your mom and tell her you're proud of being her kid. Call your family. Call your friends. 

I ran out of time with my mom, please don't run out of time with your loved ones without telling them how much they mean to you. 

Thank you so much.

Special word to the NoPixel community: you folks have been so amazing to me. It hurts every day that I can tbe bskc with you yet. I'm not sure when I can, but know I love you so dearly for the joy you bring to the world. If we have any stories left in hold, I promise some day I'll be back to finish them. Hopefully sooner rather than later.