Help Us Through Our Grief Journey

I come to you all completely humbled by this experience. After surviving breast cancer over a year ago and being medically cleared, my mother has lost her battle with stage 4 liver cancer. With this new diagnosis of the liver only a month ago, complications arose that sent her health into a rapid downward spiral. I was just not prepared for this moment. It was too fast. We as a family are torn with grief and know all of her friends, whom she loved and who all adored her, know she will be truly missed.

What she was for us as a family unit: a mother of 4, 3 surviving children, a grandmother of 12, a great-grandmother of at least 12 more, as well as a friend and supporter of others. She lost her daughter (my sister) just over 3 years ago. She just lost her mother (my grandmother) in March and found out about the second cancer shortly after. She always put herself last, and today she should be first. While everyone fights to see what they can get outta you, I am still fighting for you because you were all that mattered in the first place. Mom, I love you and I am truly sad I get to do this alone, but I get to do this FOR YOU. I am crying with tears and paralyzed in fears of not having you in my life. It will never be the same without you.

Please everyone, I come on a bended knee and embarrassed to ask, but everyone that knows me knows I am a genuinely good man to everyone. I come across with love and compassion for life and its still beautiful qualities, even though we may not sometimes see. If you truly know me or not and have crossed paths with me, I have at some point tried to or have helped you in your life physically or spiritually to be the best version of ourselves. Anyone who has lost someone to cancer or knows a cancer survivor personally can know the challenges of hours of chemo a day for months on end and then radiation to follow, only to be warned you’re not safe from it ever again. The fear we live in as the person that actually goes through this with our loved ones, not just sit and watch from the sidelines.

Day in, day out, fighting alongside with them. Sometimes I would get weary and tired and just look and say she must be feeling worse. You keep me with so much strength today, even in your passing, to be able to see what a courageous, resilient, loving, admired, adored, and loyal person you truly were. I can tell the world about you forever if they would listen because I truly knew you to the core. You were my rock.