Help us Remember&Honor ZHAINE ISAIAH SMOKE's 1st Yr Memorial

Hello, my name is Gwendyllyn Smoke. I am a single parent to 3 beautiful boys. My youngest is 5, my middle son is 15 and my oldest is now an angel is 17. As hard as this is for me to write and as hard as it is to ask and reach out for help here I am writing this with tears in my eyes. Last July 7, 2024 my oldest son Zhaine Smoke his life was tragically taken. Since my world has been shattered and turned upside down. We are traumatized from losing my son and my son's, their biggest brother. The pain I feel everyday is unbearable. My heart hurts every single day. After losing a child I don't know how parents keep going. I ask that everyday. How. My life isn't life no more I feel like everything is grey now and I'm just existing. My younger son's are what's keeping me here really. I miss my First baby boy more than Everything and Anything.

This past year I felt incapable of doing anything I'm barely trying to survive that I haven't been able to get anything together for my baby's First Memorial. I feel like it was just yesterday my sweet baby boy was home with me. Yet it feels like a lifetime that my son's life was taken away from him. He did not deserve any of this. He had such a beautiful life ahead of him and he had goals to graduated high school and begin his life. He was only 16 and would've been in 11th grade. Zhaine was smart and always advanced in math and science. He would've been graduating 12th grade early. He worked and held a job since he was 14 he even got his so called friend that he called brother a job at his work then that so called friend turned on my son. My son ZHAINE had a big heart and thought of everybody. He was an all around sport player since he was old enough to play sports but his passion was boxing. He loved the water.

He was LITERALLY the best son and best big brother who was over protective of his family. ZHAINE was very Handsome and well mannered. He was so chill never in trouble or drama. Everyone who was his real friend knew my son was one of a kind. ZHAINE was big on helping people. One time I picked him up from work a houseless guy came to my car window but I didn't have anything to help him with my son ZHAINE came out and asked the guy what's going on. The guy said I'm just trying to get enough change for something to eat. My baby boy ZHAINE ISAIAH SMOKE said come on I'll buy you something. That guy followed my son into my son's work and my son bought him a whole box of pizza and a drink. The guy thanked my son and shook his hand. Zhaine also did lawns with my middle son Xman as a side gig. Since our little family went through such a huge devastating loss of losing my son ZHAINE, Xman immediately stopped doing lawns because that's what him and his only big brother did together.

It's so hard for us to even be in our own home because my son is no longer here and home now no longer feels like home. I have no help to get anything going and I feel like little to no support emotionally. As I write this with a broken heart, I am asking for and little help to have a 1st Yr. Memorial dinner and give away/memorial shirts or even Prayers For Strength for my son's and I. Thank you all from the bottom of my now forever broken heart for my 1st baby boy, ZHAINE ISAIAH SMOKE his first year Memorial is 07/07/2024 16 years was not enough with my son but I'm thankful I was able to be his mother and grateful & thankful that ZHAINE was my son I pray Heaven is truly Paradise as my baby is now in Star Nation ✨. I hope and pray every single day for JUSTICE FOR ZHAINE ISAIAH SMOKE who now is forever sweet 16. Mommy & your little brother's always hurt for and miss you beyond the stars Bubby ZHAINE ISAIAH SMOKE I'll forever hurt for my son until the day him and I reunite! I Love You Son

-Thank you all HHHUUUGGGEEELLLYYY for taking the time to read. From my little family and I we are now incomplete!