Hello everyone,

After thinking about this for a very long time, I have finally found the courage to share our story.

For years, I stayed silent about our journey because I was afraid of judgment, negative comments, and opening up about one of the most painful parts of our lives. After so much heartbreak already, I did not know if I was emotionally strong enough to face more disappointment or lose even more hope. But after over 10 years of trying to become parents, I could not keep carrying this pain alone in silence anymore.

For over a decade, my partner and I have been trying to become parents. What many people see as a simple dream has, for us, become a long emotional, physical, and financial journey filled with hope, heartbreak, grief, and strength we never knew we had.

Over the years, we have experienced multiple pregnancy losses and ongoing fertility struggles. Each loss has left a scar on our hearts that words could never truly explain. Every time we allowed ourselves to feel happiness and hope, our world came crashing down again. The pain of losing a baby is something that stays with you forever, and after multiple losses, the emotional impact becomes impossible to describe.

We were fortunate enough to receive IVF treatment through the NHS. One cycle was unsuccessful, and another gave us the most incredible moment of hope when I finally became pregnant, only for us to lose our baby. That loss changed us deeply and is something we carry with us every single day.

Behind closed doors there have been countless tears, sleepless nights, anxiety, heartbreak, and moments where we felt completely lost. Infertility and pregnancy loss affect every part of your life mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. There were times we felt broken watching everyone around us move forward with their lives while we continued silently grieving the family we have been desperately praying for.

Our fertility journey has been especially challenging because I have a unicornuate uterus, a rare uterine condition that can make pregnancy more difficult and higher risk. Despite everything we have been through, we still continue to hold onto hope because becoming parents means absolutely everything to us.

As I am now approaching 40, we are becoming increasingly aware that time is no longer on our side. The emotional pressure of trying for so many years, while also facing the rising cost of living and the extremely high costs of fertility treatment in the UK, has left us struggling to continue this journey financially.

There have also been painful moments where people have made insensitive remarks about our situation, not fully understanding the silent grief that comes with infertility and pregnancy losses. Behind every smile has been years of tears, appointments, medications, anxiety, heartbreak, and trying to stay strong while quietly falling apart inside.

But despite everything, I still hold onto one dream:

To become a mother.

I am not asking for luxury, wealth, or material things. I do not dream of expensive cars or a big house. My greatest wish in life is simply the chance to experience motherhood, to hold my baby in my arms, and to finally complete the family we have prayed for over the last decade.

Creating this fundraiser was not easy for me, but we are reaching out with hope in our hearts and asking for support as we try to continue our IVF journey.

Our aim is to raise £7,500 to help towards IVF treatment and fertility related medical costs including medication, scans, appointments, and treatment expenses.

Any support, whether through a donation, sharing our page, or simply sending kind words and prayers, would truly mean more to us than words can express. Every single pound and every prayer gives us another small piece of hope to hold onto.

Thank you for taking the time to read our story, for supporting us, and for helping us keep hope alive after so many years of heartbreak.

With love and gratitude,

Chillie