Help turn a suicidal father's tragic life around

Tonight (October 19th 2021), Thomas Robinson, 29, asked to see his 3 month old daughter "one last time" before attempting to hang himself in the family garden. 5 police officers were quickly on scene and just in time before Thomas's life was lost forever. It would have been a tragic loss of life, not only for Thomas, but for his daughter too, who would grow up never knowing Thomas's kind heart and comedic energy underneath the mental illness.

 

The day unfolded in true ADHD style, Thomas lost his money, his phone and his tobacco all in a day after struggling to sleep at all for 3 days straight. Sleep deprived and running on 35p energy drinks, his behaviour became increasingly worrisome, he started having extreme paranoid delusions that the whole world was out to get him, until he eventually crashed. It's not the first time Thomas has tried to take his life in the past several months and regretted it each time.

 

Being the first born and already abandoned by his father; his mother dragged him from doctor to doctor determined to find something wrong with him until she found Dr Andrew Holton, a Doctor later exposed as misdiagnosing 600 children with epilepsy and wrongfully medicating a cocktail of pills aimed to turn his patients into zombies. Thomas spent much of his childhood cabbaged during the day on medication and knocked out during the night on sleeping pills in a bedroom bolted from the outside, only to be woken by his mother with (in her words) "a spray bottle of cold water". The sad reality is that by this point, Thomas's head (namely his frontal lobe) had already been altered. He has for the years since suffered ADHD, which has caused a lifetime of lost money and phones and tobacco! Not to mention impulsive behaviour and an inability to think before he acts and speaks which has cost him many jobs and relationships.

 

By the vulnerable age of 15, Thomas had become the victim of bullies due to learning disabilities which was likely exasperated by (if not directly caused by) the cocktail of pills he had taken during formative years, until one day he was beaten and left for dead by a gang of youths, which brought on this hate for the world and anger issues that landed him behind bars by 17.

 

Whilst behind bars he coldly received news that a girl pregnant with his twins had given birth prematurely and whilst one was in intensive care the other died. Thomas was only allowed to see his child handcuffed to two police officers, not allowed to touch, not allowed to hold. On release from prison and being refused visitation with his surviving baby, Thomas succumbed to drug and alcohol addictions as a coping mechanism, until he found cheffing. Cheffing gave him focus, kept him grounded, until lockdown ripped that rug out from underneath him!

 

However, that's not the tragedy in this story. Years later, Thomas found someone. Someone he loved and found out was going to make him a father again. The pregnancy was not without difficulties and that's when the words "with you as a father, I'm surprised the baby isn't dead yet" came out of his mother and hit him like a Tsunami of fear. Fear that he wasn't good enough and deserving of a loving father/daughter relationship. His mental health and his life plunged into chaos, losing job after job (7 jobs in fact in one year). Thomas turned more heavily to alcohol which put a strain on his relationship. He was eventually asked to leave the family home due to his mental health becoming increasingly difficult for his partner to handle whilst caring for a newborn and her two other children. The support from health agencies in the UK has been too slow for someone in a mental health crisis.

 

Which brings us back to today. Jobless, pennyless, homeless, sleep deprived and running on cheap energy drinks, Thomas wanted one last hold of his baby before he ended his suffering. That's the tragedy, the fact this man, truely loves his baby girl and wants to be a great father, but no matter how hard he tries, he feels like the world is against him.

 

So this plea is to help Thomas get off the streets and into a flat near his family, and to help him get back on his feet. This would help give Thomas a safe place away from his baby and the mother whilst he goes through therapy, but also help keep him close to his family for emotional support. Thank you for at least taking the time to read Thomas's story.