Help to get out and live normally

Hello.

I don't know where to begin. I never thought I'd have to do this.

I'm in an extremely critical situation, where I no longer have enough to eat.

Soon, my host will no longer be able to take me in, and I don't necessarily have the immediate means to find an apartment quickly.

I really don't know what to do. I'm already applying for help, but it's taking a long time.

Any help you can give me will be greatly appreciated.

I can no longer pay for any medical benefits, including a psychologist, to have proper follow-up. I suffer from PTSD and potentially schizophrenia. I wanted to add this out of transparency and because I can no longer manage everything, alone.

And more and more black ideas and suicidal thoughts...I had to be hospitalized several times to be safe. I have no environment or I feel really safe those who push me the wrong way.