Help the Fosters Get a Fresh Start

I have come to you, my friends and family, to humbly ask for your help. I know I have been a little open about some of this stuff, but it’s hard to be vulnerable in such a way to ask for so much help.

I know I love each and every one of you on my friends list, and we have connected in such beautiful ways. But it’s time for me to make a big change in my life.

Trigger warning here.

It is time for me to move out of Utah. I have never felt like a Utahn. Many of you know I am weird, and I stand out. I am miserable here. I have wanted to move away for over 10 years now, but I keep finding myself stuck due to a variety of reasons.

About 10 years ago, I had a crazy work ethic, working 4 jobs, from 3 am-10 pm, and weekends. I really loved working. During this time I was raped by a coworker. Then 6 months later, I was raped again, by a different coworker at the same job. I had to quit. This was after my previous ex was stalking me and posting about it online. I did not feel safe downtown or in Salt Lake.

I had full plans to move out of state, but no way to do so.

This is where the happy part comes in. I found CJ. I had never felt so instantly safe with someone. I fell in love so quickly and he has helped take care of me ever since. He works very hard to do so, to make up for where I can’t in our finances, and to take care of our home.

After my experience, I could barely work 20-30 hours a week, and more, this affected my ability to work and take care of my mental health at the same time. I find myself burning out so frequently. I feel I can only contribute 50-80% from house cleaning to taking care of myself, my social life, working, and being a good partner to CJ. I am constantly overwhelmed, and I find if I work 40 hours a week, I cant attend doctors' appointments for my many health issues, which also contributes to my workability. I have so many health issues, and every year it seems I have a new diagnosis. I constantly go through periods of autistic burnout. The more I explore and understand my brain, the more debilitating it feels, alongside my stomach issues, I have to get doctors' notes for every job I’ve had since 2016.

CJ has been working so hard to take care of me and us. We struggle, but we make it, barely. Even though I'm so frugal that he says my catchphrase is “that's expensive” we often skip meals which is not good for my disordered eating and not healthy for him either.

CJ and I have found that our needed move is to move closer to his family. As I can no longer rely on my parents for support, we have found that our best future is some Vitamin D and having a change of scenery where I no longer have panic attacks driving on state street, downtown, davis county, west valley or I-15.

All of this to say, I need to ask for help from you, my network to make up for where I am unable to do so.

I would like some help with the moving costs. I was being abused at my last job and had to quit. This means that I cannot work until we move, leaving us stressed for money as I/we take out loans to cover costs.

Cj is having to quit his job as well. Luckily he is still employed for a few more weeks, and with my Career Coach/Recruiter experience, I do not doubt that we will be able to find jobs, as I am already in the process of finding jobs for us out there.

We are lucky enough to have enough money until our move-out date, And Cj’s parents have offered to help us get on our feet until such happens, as well as help us with getting into an apartment with first month's rent and security deposit.

We are looking for help covering cost of gas for the trips to move.

Originally we thought we were going to have to pay for a moving truck but we have had some friends with trailers who are willing to help.

We are estimating about 750$ for gas for our Cars, + Trailers, and we have to make two trips.

Anything else will help keep us afloat until we get jobs.

Any help would be appreciated, even just a few dollars, a like, a share, a comment, or coming over to hangout with us while we pack and downsize. We would love to visit with everyone before we leave.