Help Tansen afford therapy for C-PTSD

Hi, I’m Tansen and I am starting this fundraiser for myself so that I can afford therapy for an adequate amount of time and not have to skip sessions or go entirely broke. My insurance does not cover the specialized type of psychotherapy that I need.

My story is this: I am a single full time parent of two wonderful boys, ages 6 and 3. I am the sole caretaker. My youngest is autistic and in December my oldest was diagnosed with stage four Burkitts leukemia, a very aggressive form of B cell cancer. His treatments were intensive and all required inpatient hospitalization. I was the only one with him.

In January we were given Covid, and we had to do the remainder of his treatments and any intermittent hospitalizations in isolation, because his immune system could not get rid of the virus for five months. During this time my younger son lived with my parents and the days we weren’t in the hospital we were there with him.

In May my son finished his last round of chemotherapy, and in June we were informed that he is cancer free and doesn’t need any more treatment. His prognosis is good and we are trying to acclimate to life again as it once was. Unfortunately this is not his first rodeo with life threatening medical problems, and the trauma of it all seems to have impacted me pretty harshly, especially this time around. I don’t like using my sons medical issues as a means of getting help, and I have avoided it for a while. But I think it’s time that I admit to myself and others that I’m not ok, and all of this is why.

I am currently unable to work because my youngest son needs me home. And I can’t find any part time work that would cover the cost of daycare. My younger son isn’t talking a lot yet, and I want him to be able to articulate his needs to whoever is in charge of his care while I am working. I would love to go get a job and afford the things we need but right now it’s just not doable.

My goal in life is to be the best person I can be for my children. They have been through so much (only a portion of it has been mentioned here) and they deserve a mom who is mentally and physically healthy and emotionally present for them. I don’t expect everyone who reads this to understand the ramifications of trauma, or understand how some of us are impacted differently than others. However I know some people will and I appreciate any help I can get.

Any money raised on here will be used strictly for therapy. The $2500 should cover a just shy of a year of therapy twice weekly.

thank you for reading.