Hey there… It’s your pal Szandora here… As some of you know, my best friend, band leader, and roommate passed away suddenly a couple of months ago. 

Where I did a fundraiser to help with Larry’s afterlife care and that helped immensely, it has left me in the worst financial spot of my life. Larry had no plans and all of his family is far away… so unfortunately, that has left me with paying his car off, past due bills and covering his portion of the rent and bills every month (which accumulates to about $1600 a month).

My job as a Social Worker recently lost federal funding and I am now left having to hold this financial burden alone, while also grieving the loss of someone who had the biggest impact on my life and I had to watch fight for his life everyday in ICU for 17 days until he took his last breath… which quite honestly broke me. I am blessed to have been there for him, but I can’t say it didn’t leave me deeply scarred and traumatized.

I am not the greatest at asking for support regarding myself, but this is where I am at. I have worked so hard the last couple of months to hold everything down, but it’s getting harder and harder until my job starts back up at the beginning of the year. I have been on my own since I was 17 and have not had the luxury of falling back on my family for support, pretty much my whole adult life… so everything I have done and accomplished has been built and supported brick by brick on my own. 

I also still need to go through Larry’s room and sort all of his belongings out before I can consider getting a roommate, and above all I need time and space to heal and recover from this… I have been going to therapy and grieving counseling once a week to try and sort everything out in that regard, but mentally it is going to just take time. 

I have truly been through a lot of things in my life, but I feel as this has been the hardest trauma to bear and I’m completely stressed out having to do this on my own right now, but I truly do not want to lose my house that I’ve worked really hard for. Thanks for listening and all of the support I have received thus far. I truly appreciate it and I will always pay it forward. If you can’t donate, please consider sharing this post. 

Truly,

-Szandora LaVey