Hello. My name is Melanie. It is hard to even begin to be at this place where I am asking for help. I hate asking for help and being vulnerable in this way. I feel like I keep struggling and hate feeling indebted to anyone. But the fact is, I do need extra help right now.

Over a month ago, I tried to take my own life. I feel so ashamed to even put that in writing. My mental health has been hard to combat even now. Between unexpected medicals bills from that day and since, having to pay for new doctors and medications/treatments, unexpected car issues, and regular monthly bills, I lost track of everything and the buffer I used to have in my account is in the negative. I didn’t have enough for rent this month and worry I have just ruined any possibility of a good Christmas for my boyfriend and I who moved into a new place not long ago. I am now in way more debt than I have ever been, and I’m honestly terrified how I will get through each day. Feeling like I keep failing in this way only worsens my mental health and drive to not give up.

It is even more upsetting when most of the expenses related to mental health treatments, therapy and medications are not completely covered by insurance, and so I have to pay out of pocket to just try to stay stable and alive.

I know a lot of people struggle, and I don’t feel special in any way for this. However, if you find it in your heart or are able to help another struggling individual, I would be so grateful. I feel awful when I know Adam and I have been so lucky to receive such generosity from others when we had our unexpected move. To be in another situation where I need to ask for help just makes me feel embarrassed but I feel I have no other choice. I also hate that I am putting him through all this too. I honestly don’t expect much, but if there is a miracle out there, I welcome it and will be grateful beyond words.

All funds have been calculated to help get me back to a stable place where I will have an emergency buffer I will hopefully not go below of. Funds will be used towards monthly expenses like bills, rent, etc. It will also go towards new medical expenses, doctors bills, mental health treatments, and to start to pay off current debt. Again, I don’t expect much and hate even asking for help like this, but sometimes you have to swallow your pride and be surprised by the kindness and generosity of others.

Thank you for your time and reading this.