Supporting Juan (Sinless) survive his dialysis

A lot of people have been asking where I've been for the past month, and what has happened. If I'm okay, and all that. Many have been wondering where I had disappeared to around a month ago. I hadn't warned anyone but a small close group of people. But now, I don't know what to do, or how to feel anymore. A month and a half ago I was the happiest I could ever be. I realized and was planning many things that I wanted to do to better my life. I was finally feeling like that mental block I had placed on myself years ago was finally being lifted. However that all changed when I realized that my body wasn't doing so well. A bit more than month ago I went to the emergency room only to find out some parts of my body weren't doing so well. I was rushed in and was told they found an excessive amount ketones, that I was going through a DKA (ketoacidosis) which is extremely life threatening and I could have slipped into a coma. The doctor's was surprised I was even able to stand. I was already in extremely rough shape. A few days later the doctors, nurses and I realized my body had stopped producing urine a day ago. They ran tests, did xrays, cat scans, and many other things only for us to find out my kidneys shut down. I had to go through surgery for a certain type of catheter only to wake up screaming in pain then immediately pass out from how excruciating the pain was.. I didn't wake up until 4 hours later only to be told that the surgery failed and I was going to be transferred to a different hospital a few hours away. When they had me switch beds I couldn't stop crying from how much it hurt to even move my arm. The failed surgery left a giant hole near my groin and the bruise was almost a blackish purple supposedly. I never got to see it because of the bandages. When I got to the new hospital they informed me how I was going to go through the same surgery again but they were going to do a different spot. I by this time was still extremely out of if. I was falling in and out of sleep, not being able to control any of it. I mainly just nodded to everything I was told and waited for the surgery. I was told I wasn't going to be given any pain medicine I can't remember the reason why, I just remember that specifically due to me feeling everything the doctor was doing to my chest while placing the catheter. Which hurt like hell. Days passed and nothing seemed to be getting better. I am now a dialysis patient and even that doesn't seem to be helping my kidneys. The doctors assume it may be a permanent thing so I had to go through another surgery in order to get a semi-permanent catheter placed onto my chest. The thing is, I'm scared. I've never been so scared in my life. I've never once actually resorted to praying, to just asking nonstop for help to anything and everything. The dialysis is the only thing keeping me good for the time being. I've already needed 3 blood transfusions because of the dialysis, and the dialysis itself is so expensive. It costs 20-30,000$ a month for my treatments. I was lucky enough to get help for a short amount of time when it comes to my dialysis. However I do not know how long I have until that help goes away so I must be prepared for when the time comes. I'm not seeking or trying to get the full amount of anything. I'm currently only asking enough to help pay what's currently owed. I'm doing my best to continue   to seek for assistance for the rest. Please do donate if you're currently unable to. Don't risk yourself financially to help. Keep it and take care of you and your family. That matters more to me than you helping me. 

I just. I'm mentally falling apart piece by piece, I can't stop crying anymore. My life just decided to implode at the worst possible time. I never once put a thought into making a gofundme. It wasn't until many friends from all around the world that I have met over time from either gaming, or just being social began asking me to make one because they wanted to help. Just the question itself has me constantly  bawling when I think of it. I just want everyone reading this to know that I appreciate your help, I appreciate you pitching in to help save me from something so disastrous and honestly frightening.

For those who have known me by Sinless for who knows how long. Just know Sinny loves you so much. Thank you guys for being by my side when I needed it the most. Don't worry. Digital Demigods, SinfulHeirs, and the Sons of Lucis leader isn't going anywhere. I'll do my best to fight through this. Thanks to everyone who's given me hope in this troublesome time. I from the bottom of my currently sobbing heart  thank you.