Help Shannon Repay Her Uncle and Grandfather

I've had multiple head injuries and upwards of five concussions, I may have post-concussion syndrome.  So while I am facing new challenges, I compulsively went on a spending spree with my grandfather's money. I feel absolutely horrible, then on top of what I spent of my grandpa's money, I now owe my uncle money as well, because he paid to get my amazon account reopen. I need to pay them back, and being as I am on a fixed income, I don't think I will ever be able to pay them back. Any money I can raise on here will go directly to them to pay back what I spent. I really put the two in a financial bind and any help will go straight to them, and I would be forever grateful. Nothing is too small.  I feel so helpless and like a failure, and at one point when I found out how much I spent I literally started seriously considering suicide.  I NEED to put at least something towards it and at least be able to pay my uncle back because it put him in a tight bind as well. I will be forever grateful to anyone who donates. Even if you just share it with your friends, nothing is too little. My grandfather and uncle have done so much for me over the years, my grandpa took me in when no one else in my family wanted me, and this is how I repaid him. My uncle does so much for me, he is a major part of my support system.  They both are, as well as my mom. I feel horrible about what I did and what's worse is that they understand it's not really my fault, as I had a concussion as I was spending, and my mental illnesses do not make things easier. So please if anyone can help, I would appreciate it so much!!