Please help me escape abuse and get a fresh start.

To start, I would like to say thank you for any support you are able to give. I plan to use any funds raised to jumpstart my financial independence. I just want to keep a roof over my head.

For safety reasons, please don't tag me if you're able to share.

My(F,40)best friend (M,39) has become violent and abusive and I need to get away. We've known each other for 20+ years, living together the last 6. For my safety, we need to go our separate ways but he has alienated me from the world and I'm dependent on him paying his half.

To be clear, the abuse comes in all forms. Just a few hours ago, I got a heavy dose of mental and physical abuse hurled at me, he loves to threaten to break my jaw for instance. So when he gave me the choice of him beating me into a coma or "doing as he says", I knew what I had to do. Get out.

I'm constantly told I'm the abuser but I've never intentionally done anything to hurt him. To him, the abuse I inflict comes from mind games and me saying I care when I don't. I'm an abuser because I didn't put a pack of soda in the fridge, therefore I don't care and I get choked for not caring about his needs...

If I call the police, he told me he would kill me the moment he got out of jail. Regardless of the legal side of this ordeal, I need to get away and I have absolutely no funds to do so. I have a decent job but I've been financially drained just trying to stay afloat with him taking so much of our income for himself.

I know most people are struggling right now, but if sharing my story is all you can do then please share. Anything helps!

My sincerest thanks,

Shana

Also, for anyone who may know this person. please do not engage with him on my behalf, it will only make the situation harder.