In October of 2020 I was attacked in my own home by a family member and then transported to the hospital. I had to leave Massachusetts Maritime Academy due to my family's inability to pay tuition and other traumatic events in September of 2020. Since then my life has been very strange and it has been difficult to trust or connect with friends or family. I have been working full time since and I am now struggling to establish financial independence as well security in my life. I have been getting stalked. There have been attempts on my life. I was hit by a car in 2022 luckily I did not suffer any major damage. I have also been suffering from abuse from family.. I have tried to maintain peace in my life, but my own family and friends have been unable to help and at times look to create more conflict. I have tried to reach out to several friends and no one is responding or of much help. I have medical bills from 2020 from South Shore Hospital that still need to paid as well. I tried to go to the Quincy Police Department about this and they were very rude and dismissive and I have more hospital bills to pay because of their lack of understanding of my situation. There is still not a proper investigation underway. My life has been threatened by my family members and I need help moving out ASAP. This is an emergency. I have been in therapy since 2021 and can no longer afford it due to these complications. I am still able to work. I do need immediate funds to fix my phone screen and repair my vehicle. I was in a car crash in November 2024 and I have still not been able to repair my bumper. I do not have a good relationship with my family or anyone else right now. Everyone has been ignoring my texts and I am unable to make calls because of my phone screen. I am not in Quincy, I am in Rhode Island where my family now lives because that is the only bed I have available. I need help moving out so I can be at peace and be able to work and actually live. I appreciate any help, I can get, this will go towards paying off medical bills, securing housing, transportation, as well as legal counsel so I can get properly seek justice and get back to work. I will provide updates on my situation through Facebook, and instagram when I can use my phone again.

My parents have sought out to sabotage my life once again by forcing me to go into debt. They have plagued my life with their hypocrisy and arrogance my whole life and it still going on. I am unable to have any regular conversations with them because they seek to turn everything into a dispute or argument so as to come up with a win, it's very frustrating trying to find ways to respond to them when all they want to do is scream and yell about the smallest things. I have done everything I can to support them and offer them proper servitude and they still act like I have done anything for them or treated them properly. I still show them politeness despite the years of abuse and continued hypocrisy, they fail to show me any grace and are very discouraging individuals to me. They try their hardest to insult me and many conversations with them seem to always end up with them seeking violence against me, their own son. My own father uttered the words threatening to kill me, and my own mother keeps asking me to fight her. They both constantly ask to fight me which confirms the reasons why I have not been able to speak to them properly and why I have been right in ignoring them for most of my life. We have not been able to proper conversations in along time and it seems like they don't respect me as an individual or an adult and I am not sure what image or definition of me they have in their mind but it is increasingly harmful as I try to live my life. They have filled their own lives and marriage with lies and abuse and think I want to live my life the same way. They are disgusting individuals who have always lived through double standards, hypocrisy, and unfitting arrogance. They have been displayed some of the worst behaviors towards me like being rude to waiters and service workers, quarreling with people in the church, and failing to maintain any truth or consistency in their life. They act in all of this disgusting hypocrisy and wonder why there is this gap between us, why the love is fake, why their marriage is failing, and why I don't want to follow their "instruction", they are not qualified to teach and they are hysterical, hypersensitive, as well as strategically insensitive. They do not make feel like I am their son, and rather I feel like some sort of demo project, or test subject to them, to later on market for their failing business that is never properly ran. I have neglected reaching out to police and DCF for most of my life because I was convinced not to by my own parents as well as other community members due to some errors in the system as well as corruption. I wanted my younger brother who was born an American to actually get to grow up with two parents who cared and most of my life, my older brother and I had to take on this role of micromanaging our own parents to make sure our little brother was being properly cared because of their trademark neglect. Making sure he was keeping up with his homework and feeling confident in his general performance of life. I have dedicated hours to picking him up and dropping him off at school and I had been doing so on and off since 9th grade. I have given him the clothes in my possession to wear to school so he could confident, I have spent time helping him practice and train for football. I had been the one to take him to his practices, games, night after night, constantly making sure he was able to get his events. All this work to make sure he felt confident and was happy. Now the relationship between my siblings is also in peril. My younger sibling who has leeched from everything I have as well as failed to display any sort of gratitude had sought out to physically attack me in the house in the presence of my parents. I am not sure what is going on with him, but he was also expelled for bringing a weapon to the high school in our hometown. Now he constantly fails to listen and keeps trying to act like he's better than me and keeps threatening me and raising his voice at me unnecessarily. Everyone in my family keeps playing out these very recognizable behaviors of kids who have always had behavioral issues. In short, they keep acting like "tough, bad misbehaving black kids", I do not know who is paying them to act like this or who is contributing these acts. It seems like they keep trying to trap me in these bad installments of bad plays. I have no problem defending myself and I have no problem standing and speaking up for myself. In the past I may have been assessed as needing help or practice with that due to me being 10 years old, scrawny, and an immigrant with abusive parents but I have done just fine in the last 14 years and don't need any more "self-defense" workshops from surrounding organizations perceiving the responses of the universe. My older brother now acts like I'm some sort of failure, when I had been there in our younger life being a perfect little brother to him, being his sidekick to everything our parents made us to, having to sacrifice my personal wins and happiness so he can receive the glory and main prize. Despite being insulted by his friends and our older cousins who in the 4 year age gap served a major difference in our lives but now I am 24 and it seems like the age gap serves a different purpose now. I always looked to help my brother out even when it wasn't reciprocated because I thought he needed it because I have seen him in dark emotional times that seemed like it would weigh on for years and take a long time to heal from so I always tried to give him space.

Now having been through a pandemic that has handicapped many people and their abilities and powers in the world, that same brother looks to insult me and claim too like my parents that [he has also spoken disgustingly about at an earlier age when "it wasn't right to do so because he was not fully developed and there was still plenty of life to live"] he thinks of me as a failure and not successful. I do not ask him for advice on career and success, and instead he just acts like a school system and has these times where he has annoying unhelpful assembly moment when I have sought out my own information and research on success and business. I don't look to constantly ask him for advice, because I would rather give him space as it is now even more evident that he has not worked out his issues. Not only did he sicken our interactions and conversations with terrible quips and puns and jokes but he fails to understand that I don't care about his "advice" dishes. His advice portion of big brother school system act only comes out when I'm headed that way anyways. I don't like having conversations with him, and don't like his big brother act, he has failed to be a proper brother to me, and has been even a worse friend. Now he just tries to intrude in my life and act like he knows everything when he has egregiously failed to assess what I know and how I act given my circumstances. Not only has been a terrible brother at times, many times when I did great things for myself and the family, the whole family would leech from me, and flock me with all of this fake celebration and energy and they still act in this toxic arrogance. So many times I had been tasked with unreasonable situations like defending my older brother from gossip by people who I didn't think would have any reason to speak about him. I have always wanted the best for my family and as well as my brothers. My own older brother has asked me for help and advice so many times and has chosen to blind himself in that and ignorantly claim that I am a failure and unsuccessful. He has asked me for stock trading advice, improperly completed trades, and sought out a personal vendetta against me after his own failure. He fails to take up any personal accountability and lacks integrity in his shortcoming of financial success. Now he has tried to bring back all these small "wins" from arguments from our childhood, specifically in the range of 10-15 years ago. He constantly tries to bring back these "wins" from these annoying incessant social media arguments concerning sociology as well as black issues. It seems he has let himself be dictated by these very toxic arguments, since we were younger I noticed the difference in language and behavior between his jokes he would tell with his "older" friends and our older cousins who I was to young to hang out with. I did not even come into proper understanding of most of these "jokes" and "arguments" which take place in very dangerous chat rooms, online and as well as in person. It wasn't until I had gotten to college where I was finally free from the at home diy "safe mode" algorithms and safety precautions set by the dangerous family members that constantly threaten my life and have put me in harms way time and time again. Not only have there been attempts on my life by own family members I have always lived with, it seems that they seek to form some sort of legacy lines and host reenactments of the pain and ridicule they have tried to place in my life. In all the games there's even been to play whether as a family or just in my life they have always wielded this energy of envy and constantly act in jealousy to everything I do as well as being my enemies. They constantly act in this sense of endless gym, practice, workshopping when they are so painfully unhelpful.

In my recent young adolescence I sought out to actually realize that I was hurt in life and realized that I was unable to cry and that it was an actual sad thing. The last time I cried, it came out of nowhere and it was very painful and it felt like it been caused by an unknown major sadness from something or somewhere I had been improperly informed about. I have been dealing with losses, familial as well losses of other community members of my past which can hurt even more. It hurts even more when you constantly hear about the amount scams around people's deaths and their pains and ailments. When I cried these heavy tears, I had thoughts of my old neighborhoods, scents of my old barbershop, old street vendors, as well as thoughts of neighborhood friends and I had been running into people that seemed like possible relatives that I had not known the names of. I had also experienced a different view of the environment, the same weather as different years seemed to carry different feels bringing about a proper nostalgia which is certainly realigning. I am still seeking proper understanding of these occurrences and these people so I can maintain proper relations in my life. My life is becoming my own due to sacrifices and proper actions I have taken. I have several decisions to make as well as make room for to play out.

UPDATE: MY PHONE IS ON AND I CAN CALL AND MAKE TEXTS AND RECEIVE FACETIME CALLS, REACH OUT TO ME DIRECTLY, I ONLY HAVE ONE NUMBER, IT HAS A MAINE AREA CODE.

MY INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT(S): “ISKERVENS” AND “SWERVOSHOTME” are currently disabled due to being connected to my Facebook which was hacked and later disabled.

Please Reach out to me on “swervoshotme2” and “swervofilms” or call me directly, not any family members, brothers, sisters, or mother, etc, call me and I will answer and explain. You may also donate through other means like payment reception services I will make note of it, this is a dire situation and emergency, I am at risk and trying to stay alive and out of survival mode.

I have people that need to be reached by me through proper presentation and need full explanation and be in proper reception of my character and humanity. Please help!