I have found out on the 23/04 that my dad has been taken very ill, he has very bad gangrene in his feet which has turned into sepsis. He has been suffering with his health for years and usually springs back but this time he is not showing any signs of improvement, it’s really hit him hard. He’s gone through many pneumonia’s, sepsis before and has other health conditions such as a lung disease where he has to be on a ventilator each day. Bipolar and other mental health conditions have contributed to his poor health and medications he has to take which has turned him into a zombie most of his life which has piled many health issues on top of each other. Usually a fighter, he no longer has much life left in him. Flying home may be the one thing that could really boost him and his positivity. From one FaceTime he was able to get out the words ‘I love you’ and a crooked smile, before losing consciousness again due to being heavily sedated. Being there in person, could be everything! Single child,I am his only daughter and closest thing to him, so the thought of losing him whilst not being able to be there breaks my heart.
The pandemic and myself not being able to go home has hit hard, I haven’t been able to see him since the Christmas before last due to the restrictions.
He is in a care home and under palliative / end oflife care, where it has been confirmed there is nothing much left that can be done. He hasn’t got the strength to undergo surgery, doctors have said he is not able to be moved anywhere so he is continuing at the care home rather than in hospital as he is still receiving the same treatment (which is not a lot) he would be able to get. Painkillers, ventilator. No surgery.
The doctors do not know if he will recover or not. If the sepsis does not improve he could only have a week, or days to live. He is too far gone to receive treatment/surgery and is relying on his body to bounce back. For me to get home, I can get an exemption to travel but due to him being in a care home it is up to them to confirm whether I can visit; I must isolate 7 days before I can see him, but I am unable to isolate from home so i’ll have to stay in isolation accommodation which is £800 for a week, but I have managed to find an Airbnb to reduce to £400 due to the circumstances, for that I am so grateful! It’s taken me HOURS just to figure out how to fly home, endless calls & finding flights and accom, which has taken up my attention and given something to focus on, amongst countless episodes of breaking down inbetween, my heart really is shattered into tiny bits. I battle with ADHD & autism and this has been, a lot...
There is no direct flight to go from Manchester to Guernsey due to flights being inactive during the pandemic. I have to get a train & overnight accommodation in Southampton then fly to Guernsey. Breaking down the costs, it’s £400 for the accommodation, £222 for a one way flight, £60-120 for a one way train & £35-50 for accommodation in Southampton. Not to mention flying back...in total it’s costing around £750 and that’s not including food & flights/trains back. To get that together in a few days is crazy..during the pandemic limitations I am so angry to not just be able to fly and stay in my own home!
I am self employed and have been on minimal furlough for the past year, unable to do much work. I recently went through a pregnancy over the past few months which I had wanted to keep but due to not being in the position for this or having support from the father, I made the sad decision to have an abortion, meaning I have not been working for a few months with my self employed jobs, as it really broke my mental health down and took a while to be able to function. Just as I came back to life, and felt on top of it again I then received news on my dad. Life really ain’t messing about!
Finding the money to now travel, and not being sure if I’ll be able to afford to due to all the extra costs, is heartbreaking. I really do believe if I can get myself back home, even with me on island in isolation it may stimulate him to find strength. He is on end of life care but I am praying for his recovery.
I will be finding other ways to raise funds, offer healing/reiki and any other services that I can offer! I’d be so grateful for anyone who can share anything, and due to not wanting to receive without giving back, I am more than happy to exchange with those who are in need of healing sessions. Please if you can help in any way, I would really appreciate it. For any friends who donate I am happy to provide reiki / tarot and also photography. This may be a go fund me, but I’d rather look atit as an energy exchange
Thank you for reading if you got this far! Apologies for any typos, my eyes are bleeding
Blessings