Hello everyone, my name is Sara and I'm an artist and a naturalized citizen who was adopted from colombia and brought to the US when I was 9 days old. I've been living in a permanent state of fear as a brown person in this country. I've been terrified since you know who came back. Things are so scary now that I have reached a point where I no can no longer sleep at night, eat right and i am highly s*icidal because I feel like I have no future anymore and that my life will inevitably end in tragedy. Normally when I am struggling this hard mentally, I check myself into inpatient care. With the way things are and the kidnappings out of control I don't feel safe staying overnight in a hospital at all. I simply won't take that chance. I can no longer handle existing in this country anymore and my husband and I agreed that it would be best for us to live separately and feel safer (he is white so he will be safe to stay here, keep working, hold down the house and care for our pets). Now I am hoping for some financial help if possible to help with my travel, and extended stay hotel payments to cover me for a while until I can find some way to make money. We don't make much because only my husband works. I have been unable to work for the past 15 years due to severe depression, BPD and anxiety and I lost my SS when I got married. I honestly was on the fence over whether i should even make a GoFundMe because I wasn't sure if anyone would want to help. There are so many other people and things to donate to especially right now. So many need help, but then I figured what do I have to lose?

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I will be so grateful for anything people can give. I am trying to get out of the country as soon as 2 weeks from now so I hope I can raise enough before I leave if possible.