This is really hard for me to write because I just hate putting stuff out there like this, but I could really use all the prayers, good vibes, ideas, etc. Some of you know about my cancer in 2022 and I had surgery, recovered. I started having intermittent issues again in about May 2024. In March 2025 I had emergency surgery for bowel obstruction. I was so relieved after the surgery because I recovered well and I thought it was a new beginning (for the most part). Well, about a month ago, I got very sick again. I was in the ER twice and they admitted me. I was there for 9-10 days. I have specialist appointments the next couple weeks with oncology and nephrology. They are not exactly sure what is what yet. My doctor has taken me out of work under FMLA. Some days are better than others. But I have been out of work a month. I am struggling physically, emotionally, financially and spiritually. I’m very angry. I’m very frustrated. I feel defeated and also feel immense sense of failure for letting people down bc i cannot currently follow through on most things right now. I feel like every time I get one leg up I get bull dozed back down. It is very hard for me to be open and vulnerable like this but I guess that’s the benefit of being in therapy I appreciate your time and love. Thank you so

Hopefully my short-term disability payments from my job will start coming in about 30-45 days.

Pictured is my sweet boy who always comes running to me when I’m upset to console me. Idk what I’d do without him.