Help Rhonda get back on her feet please

Well, let me take a deep breath right now. My friend Betty used to say you have not if you ask not. I still struggle with this big time! I have been contemplating this since before Brutus got really sick, and I started having to spend a lot of extra money. All the extra laundry detergent, carpet cleaner, and bleach to continuously keep the house sanitized and not smelling like dog urine. I also was spending a small fortune on medication for Brutus and going through a package of diapers with heavy-duty inserts every other day. I tried so hard to keep him here with us. The first time we took him to the vet, they wanted $880 for bloodwork. When we took him back the following week, they sold us antibiotics for $160 and put him on gabapentin and trazodone. Walking out of there, spending another $300. I have had to take out Checkngo loans to be able to make my rent and pay while caring for Brutus. I had to get his diaper on and off and cut a hole for his tail, then line the diapers with heavy-duty pads for double protection, and use pee pads all over the house. With all the exhaustion, I lost my balance and fell twice, hurting my elbow and back. But I am trusting that everything will work out .

When I had to put him down, my life became even more complicated financially. But I am choosing to see this as an opportunity to practice resilience and faith. They ended up charging me $615 when I was quoted $225 for all the additional expenses. Then on top of my own expenses, I have my 14-year-old grandson in Mt. Morris calling me, crying, begging for me to buy him and his siblings food. I am humbled by the trust they have in me, but grandma is struggling to feed the boys she has here! Then my brother in Ohio, on a monthly basis, begs me to buy him dinner because he is broke and has not eaten in days. I feel as if I am being pulled in so many directions and expected to take care of everyone! But who takes care of me? My health has been really bad since December, and I've been having all sorts of tests done - MRIs, biopsies, esophagus stretched yet again. I'm not digesting food, choking when swallowing, constantly having burning in my stomach. Just one thing after another! Not to mention my mental health! But I am trying to rise above this.

My rent is due on July 1st, and I have no idea how I’m going to pay it but I am choosing to focus on the positive. I was super blessed during it all, and Jason's mom gave me her old car when she got a new one. But we all know with that comes added expenses such as car insurance and upkeep. I am choosing to see the blessing in this gift and am forever grateful to her! If you can help with any amount, that would be great. I know the economy is not good, and a lot of people are struggling right now. So even if you can just pray over my situation, that would be greatly appreciated . God bless each and every one of you! Thank you for reading! My mind is all over the place!