Help Reunite Haddie and Tristin with Their Mom

I never thought I’d find myself here or this low. I feel embarrassed to even start this, but I’ve been encouraged by others to share my story that could possibly help with my legal fees, to fight for my daughter and son back.

What I would do just to be able to call my babies and let them know I try every single day to talk to them. I wake up crying, I go to sleep crying. I feel as if they’re really not in the world; I’m grieving my children that are still here. I’ve never stopped trying to make sure they know I love them and I try every day. Now I’m denied phone calls, I’m denied visits because the place they want to meet isn’t available for months. I’ve been given an ultimatum to leave Remi's father or I can’t see my other two kids. Lord guide me, help me, open other people's hearts so my Haddie and Tristin don’t have to think their mom isn’t trying when it’s all control from the other parent. The judicial system isn’t for anyone unless you have money; it’s not a mother's world anymore. The system is WRONG. Pray for me because I truly don’t know what else to do. My kids are being kept from me. They even switched their church so I couldn’t see them. I am at a loss and I don’t know where to go from here. I’m mourning my children and how they don’t know I beg every day to call them. Last time they allowed me to call them, my son begged his dad to come pick me up so he could see me. But they don’t want to deal with them missing me and wanting to come with me, so they think it’s best they don’t contact me at all until I move my entire life to Rome to accommodate theirs and leave my new baby's father. We’re here because I didn’t have money for a lawyer when he blindsided me and missed the court date (I asked Tyler several times to please let me know but he wouldn’t tell me the date because he didn’t want me to show up). Now I’m stuck. Lord please help me and others so I can be the mother God put me in this world to be. *****Long post but I’m tired of hiding and acting like my life is fine when it’s not. Nobody knows the hell I’ve been through or the details, but I know in my heart it’s wrong and I should be able to call or speak to my children. I hate the court system. They don’t care about your kids. They care about the lawyer you have.

*** Let me edit this and say I’ve had my issues and I’ve dealt with consequences, accused of doing drugs—so I took a hair follicle test. Changed nothing. I’ve not made the best decisions the last year due to my mental state being so far down. Having a new baby and being without my two babies has taken a toll on me that I feel like will never end. Thank you to all the other mothers who can relate and the others who encouraged me on this post. It feels so good to finally let this out. I’m not here to bash the other parent; I’m here for this to be fair and my children to be able to see me.