Help Reunite a Son with His Dying Father

Hi guys...I'm sorry for asking for help. I recently had to leave my job of over 2 years to avoid a huge paycut. My dive in to running my own business has been a rough one, and waiting on insurances who pay 30-60 days after service is not easy whatsoever. I could not support us with the paycut. But now I have this huge lag in pay right when I need consistent income the most...

My father has been sick with Multiple Sclerosis since I was 12, but his health has severely declined in the last year. Despite all of the hospital stays and comas, he has never said "I'm dying." Now, he can't say anything else. Despite getting hospice started (so he is getting more pain medication) he isn't passing urine and is gurgling when he breathes...the hospice nurses say he is dying, and they know.

For some background, I left home 10 years ago because of some emotional abuse.

For the last 8 years he's been sweet and kin partly because his brain isn't working anymore. He was loopy when he did that 10 years ago. Now? He can't remember his mother died 12 years ago, or that my mother's best friend died 13 years ago...he keeps reliving the mourning of their deaths (and much more)...He can't recognize most people. I think this is finally it.

I've tried for the last 5 years to save up money to visit but emergencies kept coming up including the recent hate crime on me that set me back for weeks.

My father never got to see me on testosterone, he's never seen me in person as a man. Please help me say goodbye, as I truly am.

Please don't let the last time I saw him be 10 years ago when he hurt us...