Help! Rebuild My Life: Health, Hope, and Home

Hi all, it comes with great humility and a sort of desperation that I am making this plea for help to be able to get back on my feet. I know times have been tough for so many in this world, and with everything going on for many, it’s not gotten any easier.

This is not meant to be a sob/poor me story, just a vulnerable share of where I’m at and how I got here. Some of you may know that I struggle with Autism and ADHD which in itself comes with an abundance of trauma in the mix. At this age I’ve started to have a lot of skill digressions & I’ve spent the past decade healing my mind and body, trying handfuls of modalities, but with the trauma responses (if you care for a list, I’m open to sharing), I’ve chosen unhealthy relationships, made poor decisions based on fear, and have landed myself in dangerous situations. A lot of this comes from being naïve and my own unhealthy behaviors, which brings in people who mirror those things to me.

I do not want to get into the details, but in 2019, I moved to South Florida to work for someone that for years and it did not go over in a healthy way. After finally being able to walk away, my nervous system was unable to fully heal due to being in fight or flight and complete burnout. During that time, I was extremely ill from breast implants, black and toxic mold, and then Covid twice (that I know of). Due to all of this and rising rent prices, I was barely making ends meet.

This past July, I was robbed and beyond exhausted, so again, I made a fear-based decision and put most of my belongings in storage and moved to northeast Florida in hopes of finding rest and healing. Unfortunately, I’ve continued to have a few unfortunate events (one being a car wreck), and from the stress, I’ve been sick over and over. I’ve applied to well over 100 jobs, with the majority of them resulting in rejection. I had been hired at a couple of places, but due to my accident, I was unable to hold them down or was let go due to discrimination.

I am at a loss and do not know what else to do other than ask for help. I am hoping to get back to South Florida where I have community, more job opportunities, and get a house with a roommate that is a safe landing place for myself and my two cats (which are my entire world). This is why I need so much support.

I am open to other options, but my storage is in South Florida, and my car needs some work if I were to travel any farther. I know that all of my own actions and choices have gotten me to this place, I know with great pain that I am the common denominator here. I am just asking for some love and support.

Much Love & Gratitude,

Yiska