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THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who helped me get to treatment! Treatment was a success/failure- treatment failed but JESUS MET ME THERE and spoke to my identity in partnership with the treatment staff in their aligned moments, which was enough! Jesus is enough. 

I now know that I experience what the world knows as Autism, but I find what the world knows about autism to be so broken. The world identifies autism by dysfunction. And, the world defines autism by (dare I say Godless) neurotypical experiences from the outside observing autism, not by the experiences of autistic people, which is greatly lacking and why so many autistic people - ESPECIALLY WOMEN- don’t get recognized and diagnosed and don’t identify with their autism until adulthood! 

When I first found out I was devastated, informed by my own ignorance. I had to take my views of autism to the Lord to be corrected and wrestled with and Oh, how He Showed Up! 

I am not one big broken thing. I am an instrument in an alternate tuning, designed perfectly and intentionally, for a purpose, to be partnered with my Creator in Glorifying Him! Autism is not something to be ‘prayed away’ or ‘healed from’, and if the label of autism throws you off because you understand it in worldly terms, fine, throw it off- I have finally accepted myself in alternate tuning according to His design and I’ve never felt closer, more alive, more free. 

I know all of this by His Wisdom. 

Now, to walk in the world, I feel led to pursue formal diagnosis, which is very expensive. 


I also feel called to move and write and speak and minister and it’s all one in the same. But I am still so small, so new, so hungry for Jesus. I know it’s not ‘out there somewhere’ but His Faithful Presence day by day.