Hello everyone. I hate this so very much.

Sales have been meager this year. Making ends meet the last several months had been a precarious thing. last year I made $10,000 via Square sales. This year, $1,000. I've picked up a few commissions, but they aren't though to sustain the next two months. I've sold some pendants and prints, but those are barely enough to make buying medicine and food viable, not even touching other monthly expenses.

My mental illness are taking a hefty toll, medical expenses are piling up trying to deal with that, and I'm losing the ability to get things done because it's just that bad. I can't express what it's like to live with this level of depression and anxiety day in and out. I have BPD, MDD, and C-PTSD. I'm in the appeals process for disability, but that has dragged on for years.

I've applied for a couple of jobs that are within walking distance, but have not had luck with getting interviews. I'm not even sure I'd be able to reliably hold a position given where my headspace is, but I had to try.

My latest med has caused tardive disconesia, making the kind of work I do difficult. I'm going to speak with my doctor about it today.

Please help if you can. I am trying, but I am also drowning.