Hey friends. If you don't know me, my name is Phenix, and I've had a hard time of it lately. In 2025, I started the year unemployed. My grandad had his second of two strokes in February. Found a job in March and immediately had some digestive health concerns pop up that needed scans and treatment. Then my dog Arwyn needed emergency surgery. I started catching up in the summer, and then I was in an accident that totaled my vehicle and left me with some injuries that required physical therapy. I was able to replace my vehicle, but less than 3 months into owning it, it broke down and I spent around $1,200 getting it back on the road after just getting it registered.

I hate asking for help. I always handle my own shit. I pride myself on it. But between everything that has happened and trying to combat some pretty bad depression over the past several months(I almost hospitalized myself on a couple of occasions. Got on antidepressants that made everything worse. Just found out I have a hormone imbalance and I'm working to fix it), I just haven't been able to keep up. I had every intention of getting a part-time gig on the weekends to get back in order, but now that doesn't even look like an option because my family has received a violation from the city for structures that have been on our property for 7 years. We have to remove them or get hefty citations. My family doesn't want to let strangers handle it, so we're all coming together to work on it, but the only time we can is on weekends, so I'll be doing that for the next several weekends until it gets squared away. It feels like I'm just going to keep getting hits and I'm never going to have the time to really get back up.

I know there are a lot of big issues happening in the world right now and a lot of people with greater needs than me, but coming together is what we're supposed to be doing right now and I can't pour from an empty cup, so it feels like maybe, maybe I can find an option other than stress and suffering. I want to be better able to show up for all of you in the ways that you deserve but it feels like I can't get back to that place without a little help.

I'm just trying to get back to baseline so the debt doesn't keep compounding. Thank you for reading.