Hello, my name is Patti.

My story is a little unique. In 2016 my father was murdered by my sisters boyfriend. During this time, I had guardianship of their children. He would send me letters, trying to get into contact with them and trying to get me to contact my sister who was also incarcerated. After not responding to these letters, he eventually wrote one that described how he killed my dad and where he buried him. (My dad had already been found at this point, so I'm not sure why he did this.)

Fast forward to 9 years later. On January 3rd of this year, I receive a letter with my name on it, but it was addressed from someone else, with a different inmate number and a prisoner name I didn't know. I opened it and it was his hand writing. I have severe ptsd from the events that happened, so you can see this was a shock to me. I unfortunately still live in the same home I did when all these events took place. I've worked so much to try and save up to move because I knew something like this wound eventually happen. He is not suppose to contact me in any way. I have called the prison to try and figure out how this slipped through their fingers and I come up with dead ends. I feel like there has been no repercussion for his actions. It's not fair that I am unable to heal from this. I need out of this house and away from all the bad memories it hold. My children deserve to have a mother who is happy and able to be present with them instead of one who is in constant fear that another letter will come through. Or if some how he gets out, he knows where I live.

Unfortunately I don't have the option to move back home with my parents. My mother unfortunately passed away in 2023. And the only family I have left lives in another state. I just want a fresh start. I've never been a person to ask for help, but I am the one who always offers it. So this for me is a very hard thing to do. I've done therapy, I've tried medications, I've tried to change my mind set. Nothing has helped me while I am stuck living here where most of my trauma took place.

It is my hope that I can be moved before the end of the year at the very latest. I'm not sure how much more mental anguish I can take. I need a change so badly, but I'm not sure how else to get it.