One of my biggest faults is asking for help, but when I was diagnosed with lupus, I've been hospitalized 6 times in 2 months. The necrosis in my legs has been inhibiting me from walking, and a dear friend of mine got me a new walker and I'd love to pay her back. But I'm already behind on my mortgage and utilities, so I can't do it. I hate asking for help, but my pastor today gave a great sermon that hit home, which was to always be humble. So I'm trying this to see if I can pay her back and not be so scared that they aren't sending me my medication anymore due to the insurance switch that I'm still battling. Anything would help and I feel humiliation by even resorting to this until the state of Tennessee benefits start.