Hey, my name is Ofek, 25, DJ, home cook, and avid researcher of Astrology, spirituality and trauma. I am originally from Tel Aviv and recently moved to Berlin because of the instability, constant stress and my political beliefs which do not align with the state's agenda.

I was recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, which pretty much means I need to refrain from stress and triggers, so I decided to leave my country in order to find some peace in Berlin, which was the only place that felt familiar when home could no longer be.

I did not arrive with much savings or a plan, but I felt like I am dying, every siren, every loud blast, and even the general aggressive attitude in the country made me live in constant pain and unable to function.

In July 2024, after I finally got recognized for my disabilities by the state, I went through a bike accident which made me unable to work and greatly affected my mental state because I was once again unable to sustain myself, all the pension I got went to basic needs instead of starting studies, building a life and healing myself.

After the current events in my home country I decided I can't take it any longer, I do not want to live under this constant stress and pain, so I took a one way ticket to Berlin in hopes of starting a new life, one where I could tend to my sensitive soul and give myself what I need.

I am here for half a year already, I managed to find a flat and get a temporary visa thanks to a loan I had to take out in addition to my current debts, but I still haven't been able to find a working place that suits my needs as I am both post traumatic, diagnosed with Fibromyalgia (Diagnosed only in April 2025, but I had symptoms since middle school) and with Ulcerative Colitis from a young age.

Thanks to my time in Berlin, finally being able to retrospect and stop thinking out of scarcity and fear, I realized I am transgender. I was always a more feminine person, and felt like I am living life through someone else's eyes, as if I did not belong anywhere, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't fit into work places, couldn't fund any type of studies and just lived day by day hoping to survive.

I decided to open this fundraiser so I can start the life I deserve, I currently do not have public health insurance in Germany, meaning I can't start HRT until I find a job that will sponsor a visa for me, and every day that passes makes me more anxious and desperate, I finally understand why I never felt like I am in my body, why people look through me and don't understand me, and why I was constantly depressed and dysfunctional.

Right now, I am unable to start any type of systematized road to healing, I am still in constant worry for payments, unable to fully cover medication, supplements, treatments, food, furniture and new clothing that will help me feel like I am in my body.

Even if I reach this end goal, I still won't be able to cover all of my debt, but at least I will be able to get back on my feet and stop fighting myself if I want to buy food or a pillow, and start HRT privately and start seeing mental health professionals until I can better my legal status and be publicly insured (Currently under Working Holiday Visa which expires July 2026, which doesn't allow public health insurance)

For good measure, here is a comprehensive list of my medical diagnoses:

Over these years I have also been battling several addictions, and starting this new year I have decided to take sobriety upon myself, I truly hope I will be able to come out of this and in the future be able to help others heal through such hardships, as my dream is to be a DJ, musical producer and alternative healer who focuses on healthy living, healing and trauma processing.

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With the money from this fundraiser, I wish to be able to start HRT privately until I manage to find a work place which will grant me access to public insurance, pay off as many of my debts as possible, and be able to structure myself towards studying, living healthy and pursuing my actual needs and desires.

For more context, here is an interview of a woman who healed herself from Fibromyalgia, and the thing she said in this video that echoes through my head constantly, is that the only way to be able to heal from this condition, is to be able to release control and trust that you are safe. Since I left home I do feel much more calm and I have less extreme episodes, but it still affects me daily and I have days where I am bedridden.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3p503M2QjoA