Help Null escape to somewhere safer.

So,, I never knew that the situation would have to come to something as dire as this, but,, I'm honestly in desperate need of help. For those who don't know me, I'm Null (Null_Oracle) also known as Tipp or T1-PP, I mainly create content for Twitch, Tiktok, Twitter, and Youtube when I can, on top of taking commissions and working a new 9 - 5 job on top of everything else. Things with my content and artwork have come to a huge halt due to my unmanaged ADHD that gets in the way of quite literally everything that has to do with existing,, Three years ago, when I turned 18, I escaped from my negative household(s) that I was in with my biological family members, as my relationship with them emotionally and mentally has always been turbulent due to the family being dysfunctional. I then moved in with my partner at the time, and basically used the time that I had here to grow as a creator as well as a person - I started my transition (FTM) in January of this year and have been on Testosterone since, I've been exploring my identity and trying to mold myself into the person who I want to be and who I want others to look up to - but that's not the point of this, really,, I've always had trouble feeling like I had a family of my own due to everything that has happened to me throughout my life, and it was no different here with my ex-partner's family. Three years later into our relationship, things hit rock bottom, and we ended up splitting after a lot of tension, pain, and hurt of trust - while I ran out of the house for a little while to take shelter with my other partner, that we were in a Poly relationship with, and his family. Ever since I've come back to the house after having the (surprisingly somewhat healthy verbally?) breakup with my ex, a veil has been lifted on how I feel about and in the house, as well as the state of the house and how it affects my mental and physical health. I won't go too far into detail, because I'm not looking to slander or cast shame on my ex's family, for they have taken care of me by allowing me to stay here while I work and allow me to stay here without paying for bills and most of the time food, but other than those amenities, my life here is and has been absolutely miserable for the past couple of months. Because of the state of things, there are nights where I'll go without dinner because I genuinely don't want to touch anything with the kitchen due to a pest problem as well as general uncleanliness, and the same extends to the bathroom and keeping up with personal hygiene. As time has gone on, my mental health has seriously declined, as well as my physical well being when it comes to self care, and I genuinely don't know how much longer I can take this. My original plan was to save up as much money as possible from streaming and art (Ko-Fi and Twitch mainly) to move out before my birthday in the beginning of April 2023, but it ended up falling through due to this year being extremely difficult for me, especially with my unmanaged ADHD. Due to me taking so long, the money from me saving on Ko-Fi has now gone to me getting to and from my newly picked up workplace every day, getting myself emergency food before coming home if I know I won't be able to handle the kitchen that night, medical supplies, stream supplies so I won't have to borrow from anyone else in the house anymore to try to earn money with my content creation, and other helpful needs. But now it's to the point where I genuinely cannot survive like this. I don't know if I can make it to April like I wanted despite having a job now to get me out of the house more and to save up money, let alone making it to February, I'm just unsure, scared, tired, in pain because of the combination of my physical conditions + retail work and honestly just ready to leave this all behind so I can live and take care of myself somewhere healthier and more supportive again. Especially because my Ko-FI savings fell through so I could take care of myself and keep pushing myself forward with what I had, I was terrified of the idea of making this gofundme because I didn't know how people would react or what they'd think. I've tried time and time again to come up with solutions to get myself out of this year long rut I've been in, but to no avail - so I was hoping that people wouldn't take this as me just yelling into the open air or something... This is the first time I've done anything like this, and I absolutely hate asking for monetary help from others, but it's to the point where I've hit rock bottom and there's no positive end in sight for me unless I get out of here somehow. If you have anything to donate at all, or even nothing at all, any sort of help would mean the absolute world to me, be it a share or even just words of support. I'm ready to finally get to rest - I don't know how long it'll take, but I can't wait to be able to breathe again. Where I will be moving will be kept private for my sake as well as the sake of those living there, but know that it's a place where I'll be able to be myself again, create my content again, be healthy again, and most importantly of all, be happy again. It sucks that I can't keep FULL privacy on gofundme, but please do your best to respect my current living space's privacy as well, as much as I'm trying to get out of here. Those who live here deserve your respect too. The funds from this fundraiser will be used for general moving costs, food, helping with bills, having money saved up to make sure that I can keep up with paying for my own new health insurance while looking for a new job, helping to pay off my left over taxes for the state that I live in from my freelancing, medical supplies to help me continue my transition and get help with ADHD medication, and most importantly of all -- building my room in the new place where I'm going to be living. I will not be using the funds for nor asking for any extra funds for more trivial or material things such as furnishing my room, content creation based improvements or clothing, because I would much rather work for those myself with a job that I'll hopefully be able to pick up in retail again as hard as it'll be on my body, so please keep yourself in mind too if you're going to donate - as much as I appreciate the help, please make sure that you can help yourself before you help me - it would mean the world to me if you could be happy and healthy and eat well! If you got through this absolute gargantuan beast of a wall of text, thank you so much for giving me your time and energy - even that is enough for me to feel like there's a little bit more hope for the future than what my brain likes to tell me. :)